It’s truly so fascinating to see who notices at a social gathering in person that you seem off and feel comfortable enough to say something to you/ask how you’re doing
The thing that hurts the most, is truly when there’s a party and everyone takes a pic except one with you and you’re the one taking the pics of everyone else. Like it feels like my presence didn’t matter at all
Why is it always super fucking small things that get under my skin the most and make me want to cry/quit. Like one fucking email is really gonna send me over the edge??
I truly think my self-esteem issues stemmed from my parents getting divorced when I was in kindergarten and somehow thinking I had done something to cause the divorce. Like if I had been a better 5 year old it would save their marriage lololol
And here I am, a fucked up adult
I’ll say it a million times, telling someone “oh yeah you can come” vs. “I want you to be there” makes all the difference of feeling like an afterthought and feeling like part of the plan