He estado en mania durante tres dias seguidos, no para de llorar a menos que me distraiga, si por mi fuera no dormiria pero solo He estado durmiendo 4 horas, tuve 2 statues de panico, alucinaciones sobre insectos y paranoia de persecusion. Aun asi necesito seguir viviendo
Odio estar viendo un hentai y q de la nada muchas chicas estén con un chico cuando el desde el principio ya tenia solo a una, por que mas? Con una está bien, porq no puedes serle fiel puto asqueroso te odio para q quieres más si ella ya hacía todo bien encima es un feo de mierd
The cons about sleeping with someone.
* what if they don't stop again when I tell them no, ik I'm an adult now but still I feel like that little kid again
*They might have bad hygiene
*Possible STD
*might dump me after
After all I'm saving for a laptop, but at this point I wonder why do I need one, I mean I've always wanted one to play games, but I'll die in a year so I don't see the point
I'll think about it for a few more days... the pros of sleeping with someone are:
* being needed
*having someone to cuddle and hug with
*Enjoying the heat of another body
*Being called cute name
Dude wtf it can't be that the only way I can receive affection is by sleeping with someone that's so sad. I'm at my lowest, I hate myself!!!! Hate it hate it hate it hate it. But at the same time I want to be needed
Also today I thought about something kinda disgusting, but i want to be hug by someone so bad. But the only way for me to get that kind of closenes is having sex with someone since no one will like me as I am. I better as a concept in all of your minds..
Today I felt the loneliness more than ever, I got jealous when I see people that have someone special like a group of friends, a lover or a lovely family... I hate this loneliness, I want to kill myself so bad
a veces me pregunto por qué todos pueden avanzar, tener lo que quieren, mejorar, un grupo, mientras yo me quedé atrapado en el día que me hicieron sentir como la mierda y me dejaron atrás