i just wait for strawberries atp i want to eat strawberries all day and don't count them since they're so fullfilling and low in calories i wish i could eat them all year
I want to be small for myself but i also love and crave the idea of my man (who literally looks anorexic atp) grabing me by my arm and like pulling me to the wall or shit idk honestly i just want to be tossed around without him putting too much strength in it, like im a feather
i just want to have like no tits at all, maybe an aa cup or smth, just the tiniest bit of them. I hate my C cup BUT i started to see them get a little smaller since my bras are getting looser (he noticed it too🤭)
how did he noticed you might ask well i decided to send him nudes for easter because i am in fact a whore (im talking bout ex bf not the situationship) (also i blocked my situationship because it was such insane experience i couldn't handle it anymore)
HE TOLD ME HE SEES THAT IM LOOSING WEIGHT IM SO EXITED TOMMOROW IS WEIGHT DAY IM SO EXITED BUT ALSO TERRIFIED BC TODAY I WENT OVER THE LIMIT ND ATE LIKE 1500KCALS BC OF EASTER AND FAMILY STUFFING ME WITH FOOD (which was so good btw) BUT YEAH UPDATE TOMORROW!!!!
also, I see a pattern in my dating preferences since my first boyfriend ever was orthorexic, my second didn't have any issues but was extremely skinny too and now im in a situationship with a boy that has anorexia :////
if you want to know the orgin of my ed, i've had it before and recovered, but fell back into it because i was 49kg and my situationship is 45 (YES HE TOLD ME THAT YK HOW AWKWARD THAT WAS)