Like I put my whole fucking life on the line for people and I just can’t do it anymore these last two years have been the worst years of my life my mom passed away then my dog which was like a child to me and then a friend of mine passes away
Got a problem with oh we’ll be disappointed in me hate me for it I do not care anymore . I just don’t care I’m tired of being happy and shit just hits the fan without me even doing anything but existing. Call my selfish for it Idc call me whatever I do not care!!!
But god forbid I try to make anything about me cause then I’m just attention seeking or I’m just too much. I don’t even have to say anything and I still get kicked down for shit. I’m so fucking over it. So yes I wanna take the pain away and no I don’t mean taking my life.
I see no point anymore. I’m tired of fucking pretending to be okay. There’s truthfully only one time out of all of this where I actually felt like omg this is my break this is exactly what I’ve been fighting for and nope kicked down yet again.