i think i owe myself an apology for being in spaces where i knew i wasn't wanted & appreciated but instead i stayed. for forcing broken connections & ships. i owe myself an apology for putting people first who never appreciated me before myself.
I'm not toxic. I'm reactive. There's a person somewhere calling me difficult, and they're leaving out the part where they pushed every boundary I set, ignored every signal I gave, and then acted shocked when I finally stopped being gentle about it.
To be very clear, I don’t haťe working but I haťe the concept of working 7-8 hours a day and then going home to only about 5 hours to yourself, which includes catching the bus, cooking, and getting ready for the next day. This is not life.
I've noticed that men don't like women being women anymore. You can't express emotions, be a little dramatic at times, or even be sensitive.
It's almost as if they prefer to be in a relationship with someone more like a man.