Women have attacked me multiple times in adulthood, girls jumped me in school, women got me fired from any normal job I had, my own mother was jealous of me.
I wasn’t sure if that even existed. When I got married the first time, the guy in my head gained even more. Things my ex could never be. He was always in my head, his face was blurry and he didn’t have a name, but he was always there, begging to be found.
On the bright side, I've moved somewhere I feel much safer and at home in and me and my best friend are closer than ever despite the distance... Also, after a summer of basically mourning and getting over my crush I've met a guy I think is pretty cool.