poultry

personal diary-style alt account of @dem0npaws | rambling, photos, memes, vents & random shit |

[poultry @MijoNicky]

I have got to stop feeling sorry for myself

[poultry @MijoNicky]

how am I supposed move forward when I don't even feel at home in my own homeland

[poultry @MijoNicky]

the things I'd do just to feel comfortable in my own skin

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"don't trust your thoughts past 10pm"

why do they feel so real then

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some meals I made over the past few weeks. just to break the chain of cringe posting

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ironic how my ultra masculine, badass, womanizing, high-achieving maverick dad produced such a low energy, socially inept f*ggot of a son

all b/c he wasn't present

[poultry @MijoNicky]

how to trick my brain into thinking that I am in fact worth the effort?

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I know that there's no magic pill to kickstart your life but damn I wish there were

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looking back at my posts after over a year of inactivity here gives me indescribable cringe

I apologize lmao

[poultry @MijoNicky]

the comfort of just rotting away is enticing today

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one of those days where you just wanna die

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raising and reprogramming myself for years and when I finally start seeing some results shit just keeps getting worse and worse

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I could live off of braised chuck beef

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dissected in the court of public opinion for one small fuck up. every time

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intense indecisiveness

identity catastrophe

clusterfuck of feelings

paralyzed at the crossroads

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wish I had the courage to stick with one idea of myself and own it

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ever got told you feel a certain way as a matter of fact when, in fact, you don't?

can you image just how fucking infuriating that is?

[poultry @MijoNicky]

bean content really popular

maybe I'll do ych beans for some extra cash

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>can't sell 3 adopts $300 a piece with a ton of work invested for almost a year

>damn these are really hard financial times for ppl! it is what it is

>sees adopt go for $7000 on timeline

>pikachu face

[poultry @MijoNicky]

bizarre feeling being told that I don't have an authentic opinion of my own and being an unfun partypooper for having basic sense of pattern recognition

then later being proven right and just pretend like the conversation never happened