on my 26th birthday, i wrote I Took A Pill in Ibiza…10 years ago. The song became popular several years after i wrote it. Yesterday i celebrated my 36th birthday. i feel proud to look at the song lyrics and know that NONE of them are true anymore. I’ve grown into a completely new man…one that i’m proud of. check this out… 🧵
It’s kind of surreal to think that in every concert I do, I never sing my most popular song. I’ve removed “I Took a Pill in Ibiza” from my set list, and now I only sing “I Went Back to Ibiza”. My life has transformed from a sad song into a love song. It doesn’t mean I don’t have sad moments. It doesn’t mean I don’t have challenges, and Lord knows I still have my fair share of pain, but it’s all in the service of something bigger than me. When I remember that, my life is a blessing.
A year ago, I experienced a series of Christ based synchronistic events including:
1. a friend prophesying in Christ about my life events that I had told him nothing about.
2. Attending a tiny church service where electricity shot up my spine and I was left with a deep feeling of Oneness that lasted for hours
3. A friend in Christ who brought up an event in my life that happened 9 months before that I was JUST thinking about.
I interpreted this signs as signals for me to take a step towards Christ.
I did so.
A year ago, I got down on my knees and gave my life to Christ.
The veracity of these events and whether they could be pure happenstance versus “signs” from God is not that interesting to me.
What is interesting is what happened afterwards.
After getting up from my knees, I really didn’t know I now believed in.
As I tend to do, I went all in and started reading my little tale off.
CS Lewis, Mother Teresa, and The New Testament (amongst others) where all devoured but still I was a little confused on what it meant to me to be a Christian.
Some of the doctrine I heard espoused in church felt true to me and some didn’t.
But in the last few weeks, that has somewhat been filled in for me.
FOR ME; To be a Christian means to aspire with all your mind, body, and soul to live as Christ did. To forgive all other people. To treat ALL other people, especially the least among us (whether that be the poorest of the poor financially or the loneliest of the lonely) with an impossible level of compassion, grace, and most of all LOVE.
It means to forgive every single person in my life including me and LOVE CHRIST BY LOVING PEOPLE.
It means to live with an impossibly high standard of goodness towards others, so much so that I NEED God’s help to even get close.
It means listening to the little voice inside me (that I believe comes from God) that tells me to do right thing, even when I don’t feel like it.
It’s not just a doctrine or theology, it’s a way of life rooted in faith.
For me, if it isn’t causing me to LOVE MORE PEOPLE MORE FULLY, it isn’t God.
A few weeks ago I was baptized…
Christ has not made my life or my heart smaller, but much, much bigger. I’m working on developing more and more of a personal relationship with God.
Why doest this even matter? Do I think that my job as an aging pop star qualifies me to tell you what to believe? I do not.
But to not share this would feel inauthentic and like I was hiding a part of myself from my audience and I am not hiding this part of my life. But I am proud of this part of my life.