@lamaofjudgement I was groomed by pedophiles, to tolerate pedophilia. To think what they did- was okay. It had nothing to do with being zoo. Try searching for some context.
As someone who is doing a lot of self work, acknowledging toxic coping mechanisms and recognising when I gaslight myself- I’m officially retracting my statement in my bio “paraphiles welcome” as it connotes that I am welcoming to abusers.
As someone who was groomed and also-
@LogicThylacine That’s perfectly fine. I’m saying for me and my space, I don’t want it. And I have that right. It’s great they aren’t physically involving children in their delusions- I just don’t want it in my space. And again, I have that right.
As someone who survived being groomed from 13-17 by people 20-35 years of age, that I quite literally thought were my friends and supports- I can tell you first hand that there’s no romantic relationship between a minor and adult that would work. It will always ruin them. -
Streaming set up and hope to be up and running within the year! Pink themed EVERYTHING 🤣 my mental health is probably the best it’s been in a few years. It’s far from over and there’s lots of shadows to shed light on, but it’s begun, and that’s something 😊❤️
Living out at my dads with my girl has been just what we needed. She loves being able to go outside whenever she pleases and has made a few neighbourhood dog friends! Its a very small town in the middle of nowhere so its quaint, quiet and has lots of places to explore for her.—
We’ve both gotten into a pretty set schedule and routine, so things feel a bit more orderly and less chaotic. I’m talking more with family and friends and I find I’m starting to get my drive back! I am finally starting to gather supplies needed to start a game—
This new chapter is incredibly scary and daunting. But I can see the light at the end of the tunnel- as pinhole sized as it may be. So at least it seems attainable.
The poly love 🔺 has been settled. My husband and I are separating for the time being and I will be continuing to live with my dad with my wife. I’ve been bed ridden with depression and overthinking the past few days as this was the hardest decision I’ve ever made- 1/3
I’ll be searching for more therapy options above what I currently have and work towards loving myself and learning my likes, wants, boundaries and self worth. I’m sorry to have worried everyone. And to the Antis- this had NOTHING to do with being zoo. And I’m not going anywhere.
@hereforthezoo I just feel like I let people down… caused so much worry and that I possibly triggered some into not wanting to follow/ know me anymore. I know if that’s the case, they weren’t good people to be around in the first place… but still. I feel like I made people worry for nothing…
I’m here, I’m getting the help I need. Properly diagnosed and medicated- Therapy and taking a break from all relationships. Living with my dad for a while longer. I’m so incredibly sorry to cause worry. I’ll also be signing off indefinitely as I’m quite disappointed in myself.
Tried No2 and alcohol- couldn’t find a whipcream charger in the area. Decided it was time for the rope. Im sorry. I’m glad but I’m also just… so defeated. Can’t even do this right.