@oncloud_e It was more or less how it was for me, I pushed my transness way down and after years of struggling and not seeing a future for myself. It was at that point everything clicked that I am trans and suddenly I had an alternative to ending it so I came out. It’s been 7 and 1/2 years
before i decided to come out i tried everything else i could think of to change my life, and when i finally ran out of options it was that or k***ing myself and i remember having this moment of like "oh fuck i have to transition huh. damn it"