Am I a bad person because I got turned on learning about the severe decline in Y Chromosome diversity in the late Neolithic and what caused it? I think future generations will find a similar, although more extreme, effect when they study the genetics of today's white populations.
You will always be a loser, there is nothing you can do about it. You will always be at the bottom of human hierarchy. Destined for life long servitude of your superiors. You can keep coping, thinking that someday things will be different. But it's a lot easier to surrender 🏳♠️