nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between “things will get better” and “i can’t handle this anymore.” it’s like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day
Ngl i like clingy. I like good morning and goodnight messages. I like double texts and phone calls. I like unexpected "i miss you so much" texts. i like knowing someone cares. I like knowing they try.
I sincerely hope you find your person, not just a romantic partner, but a good friend who will always be there for you. And when you do, I hope it’s forever.
Suicidal thoughts don’t always come as a wish to die.
Sometimes they arrive as:
• I don’t know how to keep going like this.
• Every day feels like endurance, not living.
• I’m overwhelmed by existing in my own body.
• I feel replaceable, forgettable, unnecessary.
• I’m tired of fighting thoughts no one sees.
• I don’t feel anchored to this world anymore.
This isn’t drama.
It’s a nervous system in distress.
A soulmate is not going to know how to automatically handle you. BUT…A soulmate is going to learn and grow with you through your flaws and insecurities. A soulmate will choose to stay when things get tough. They will look for solutions & communicate instead of running & quitting.
i love when men are men. thank you for being protective, opening my doors, reassuring me, letting me yap, holding my hand, reminding me the light you see in me, providing, making plans, driving. thank you for being gentle & thank you for not complaining about any of that.
i immediately go silent when something upsets or hurts me. it's a coping mechanism i have developed over time. instead of expressing my anger or frustration, i simply withdraw and try to process my emotions in private.