It’s because you see yourself as of no value and can’t ADD to the beauty you saw to begin with. You basically see yourself as ugly and everything you touch becomes ugly.
Start asking God for more than just money. Ask Him to increase your capacity to handle what comes with it. Ask to become someone who leads well, loves well, and serves well. The blessing without the character to carry it will not last. Pray for both.
When a father changes diapers, feeds the baby, gives baths, or gets up at 3 AM. He isn’t helping his wife, he is taking care of his own child and that’s called parenting.
I’m not a good person at all. Infact, I have the capability to be very bad given the right circumstances I just don’t feed into it too frequently. But one thing I am and will forever be, is kind. Self awareness is key, always.
The real chat here is that daughters-in-law are still treated like slaves by their in-laws. Their husbands turn a blind eye because they’re unaffected by it. Women must outright refuse to participate in their abuse until in-laws learn to treat them with dignity. Period.