I'm not even going to lie, every time people tell me "I'm proud of you" I tear up a little. I don't think anyone understands how hard I am on myself and how much I beat myself up believing I'm not doing good. So thank you.
you're worried Allah wouldn't forgive you? Jibrael (AS) had to shove mud into firaun's mouth when he was drowning because he was afraid firaun would ask for forgiveness and Allah would forgive him.
And when death finds me, I hope it whispers, “Come now, the test is over, the mercy of your Lord awaits.” And it takes my hand softly, like a long-awaited companion, who understands the weight I carried.
I'm touched by the saying;
“If Allah didn't love you, He would never have let you fast the days of Ramadan and stand its nights. He only gifted you this because He wanted to forgive you.”