Full transparency... I don't think anyone's ever been in love with me before. I've been liked, I've been lusted after, I've experienced platonic love but no one has ever been IN LOVE with ME. I really want to experience that. I want to be seen. I want to be a big deal to somebody.
I want to text you all the time and see how you're doing, but I know I can't because deep down I know it won't change anything. It sucks because I thought things were going so well, but then one day came and everything changed and now I'm up at 2 am wondering how and why everything went wrong and what I did. Why I wasn't good enough for you. I find myself looking at old texts and pictures and I remember how happy I was and how happy we were. And all I can do is question how I ended up here, without you.
If you want to punish me, please do but do not ask me to create a roster for anything.
Why can't we have a digitalized way of creating roster using AI and some excel?
I hate it when people say, “You'll get through this.”😒
I've been getting through things my entire life. I'm tired of just getting through things, I want to feel light, I want to feel safe in my own life, I want to stop carrying things I never chose to carry, I want to exist without constantly feeling like something bad is about to happen..😭💔
@Bella__Bahby@gasafiyanu Firstly, the sharp chest pain was probably coincidental (or referred). That X-ray was almost certainly an abdominal/pelvic X-ray (not a chest one), which is why it showed the teeth in the pelvic region. This is a classic case of a mature ovarian teratoma (dermoid cyst).
POV: you’re dating an avoidant
Day 1:
“I’ve never felt this connected to someone.”
Day 12:
“Sorry I’ve just been overwhelmed lately.”
Day 19:
vanishes into the mountains emotionally
One of the loneliest things in the world is being the person everyone runs to when life gets heavy, You answer late-night calls. Calm their breakdowns. Carry everyone gently. while quietly realizing you don’t really have anyone you can fall apart in front of the same way.