Sometimes we don't leave because we found someone else.
We leave because we couldn't stay anymore.
Not because our heart started beating for someone new, but because our heart got tired of being broken in the same place, by the same person, for the same reasons, over and over again.
You think I left for someone else, but the truth is, I left because of how you made me feel when I was still with you. I left because of the cold silences, the harsh words you never thought twice about, the late replies that felt like punishments, the promises you kept breaking, and the apologies that never came. I left because I felt alone even when you were right next to me.
It's not always another person that ends a love story. Sometimes it's neglect. Sometimes it's disrespect. Sometimes it's the constant feeling of not being enough, not being heard, not being valued.
I stayed. God knows I stayed. I forgave things I shouldn't have, I explained my hurt until my voice gave up, I cried for you to see me, to hear me, to choose me. But there comes a point where loving someone starts to feel like slowly losing yourself.
I didn't want someone else. I just wanted YOU to be better. I wanted you to be kinder. To care the way I cared. To try the way I tried.
So no, I didn't leave for someone else. I left for myself. I left because your behaviour left me no other choice. And I hope one day you understand - it wasn't another love that took me away from you, it was your own behaviour that pushed me away.
Chozi la Heri, Riwaya ilikuwa imeshehenu wahusika na mbinu rejeshi.Asasi ya ndoa haikusaswa. Ndoa nyingi zilisambaratika isipokuwa ya ndugu Mwangeka na Rachael Apondi...Kaizari akiwa mwathiriwa mkubwa...
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Mpendwa Mwanaheri,
Utakapoisoma barua hii sitakuwa hapa, pengine hata sitakuwa katika ulimwengu huu. Ila jua ya kwamba imenibidi kuondoka. Sikudhamiria hata siku moja kuwaacha wewe,Lime,wala baba yenu. Lakini uvumilivu wangu umeshindwa kuniletea mbivu. Nimemeza shubiri kwa miaka mingi, kubaguliwa,kufitiniwa na kulaumiwa kwa nisiyoyatenda. Nimechoka. Nimechoka kukilovya kifua changu kwa machozi kila mara. Nimechoka kuitwa mwizi wa mayai ambayo kuku wenyewe watagao nimewafuga mimi! Nimechoka kuitwa mwizi wa mali yangu! Nimechoka kupigania penzi la mwenzi na mavyaa, na mwenzi mwenyewe haoni ananipagaza machungu
Najuta sana kwa kuwaacha,wanangu. Hata hivyo naomba jambo moja tu kwako. Tafadhali mtunze Lime,na zaidi mno,mtiini baba yenu na kuyazingatia masomo yenu.
Mwenyezi mungu awaepushe maovu yote. Asitokee mja akawadhulumu furaha yenu jinsi ulimwengu ulivyonihini utulivu. Kwaherini wanangu. Tutaonana siku moja, inshallah.
Mama yako Mpendwa ,
Subiraโค๏ธ
#ChoziLaHeri
I have never seen a very strange schedule in international window like this at this stage of the season... Like why should there be 4 matches in the middle of the season yet we just had a world cup just the other month,why??just imagine,those tight schedules in the groups , training, traveling for away matches, little time for recoveries,how do you expect players not to pick new injuries??how?@FIFAcom please we appreciate your work but we ain't supporters of this,a nation calling a player who is in his form,good condition only to get him injured in international ๐ then returning back to be nursed by the club, nonsense,or should RUI PINTO come in to investigate what's happening inside your organs?
Soโฆ weโre rescuing you from the capitalist clutches of that ex of yours, and then we find you with a Nigerian guyโฆ your healing is going to happen at All Saintsโ Cathedral ๐๐
Alright man, Iโve heard you ๐๐
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Sasa walete Ile kweshonea ety changamoto tunazopitia huku high institute of education,,rn niko na exclusive data,,Hadi wakitaka with an aid of a diagram nitachora vile nimeinama siku ka faivu zikifuatana,,hadi mende hazifurukuti tena yawa๐คจ๐