You can always tell when there is tension in a room. Itβs very obvious. Can anyone else feel when people have tension toward you or thatβs just me?!?!
I would rather people read my obituary than to listen to what I got going mentally. Itβs not that I donβt trust anyone, but I donβt want to bother anyone with my nonsense π’ sometimes I just donβt feel like existing anymore. I hate myself and my thoughts π’
Depression is winning and I donβt think Iβm gonna make it . I get down on myself to the point where I go numb and all I want to do is cry. All I can do is go through the day with a smile on my face while I slowly die on the inside.
Iβm a good person, but Iβm just stupid and slow asf. It makes no sense how clueless I am all the damn time π€¦πΎββοΈπ€¦πΎββοΈπ€¦πΎββοΈπ€¦πΎββοΈ
Like being serious I really donβt find myself beautiful. I only look good in pictures or take good pictures only with filters on them. Other than that, Iβm a black swamp monster monkey. π₯Ίππ₯Ίπ
I gotta a lot of sh*t on my mind that i donβt know what to do or who to talk to. Built up emotions got me like mindf**ked. But hey what can you do π€¦πΎββοΈππ€¦πΎββοΈπ