Imagine going to war thinking you’re defending your country’s freedom, killing a bunch of guys defending theirs only to find out you were just a pawn being used by greedy Israeli cocksuckers who hate you and the country you thought you were fighting for
Normalise saying "Astagfirullahi wa atubu ilaihi" the moment you feel jealous, get evil thoughts, feel disappointed and hurt. Trust me, all the negativity will flee and you will feel normal plus Allah will become happy with you!