Instead if u focus on what u can do and u are main character below God ur chances will increase so prioritize ur wishes for your own mental health and prioritize ur effort for progress
Everybody wants many things in life then ur wishes will be filtered by upper hands.
Then suddenly things go the opposite to what u wish.
1) if think like humanity u will get insane and sick of it
But if
2) u think in spiritual way the fire will be quiet
plus this remember to focus on what u can do not what u want to happen. Don’t wish things that not totally up to u and god only but there is other secularity factors and put it in the first place and romantize it to be ur main event
I tried to find out why i did this and when i re create the same phase suddenly i know why it was not reasons it’s just not me anymore
So accept it and never search for what it ended . It’s just nostalgia and delusions