being a high functioning stoner is WILD because everyone sees a walking chimney - but no one fucking sees the 57 tabs open in my brain, the childhood trauma, the jukebox constantly playing, the overstimulation, the executive dysfunction, and the fact that I’m still somehow getting shit done.
being a high functioning stoner is WILD because people think I'm smoking to numb the fuck out, when really - I’m an unmedicated, overstimulated, traumatized ADHD brain that constantly fucking feels like its trying to hold a group meeting with 57 screaming raccoons.
the neurodivergent paradox: wanting to be alone because you're overwhelmed
and wanting to be around people because you're lonely. at the same time. for years. constantly.
ADHD is exhausting.
You can fit in everywhere but feel like you belong nowhere.
You’re confident and a mess at the same time.
You could do anything, but starting anything feels impossible.
You’re funny, charming, and also done with people after 10 minutes.
You give amazing advice you’ll never take.
You probably have genius ideas and zero follow-through.
You’re social but need to disappear for days.
You love being different until people don’t get you.
You feel everything deeply and still look cold.
We make it look fun. It’s not.
Autism pros: I will love you with a specificity and consistency that will ruin generic love for you permanently.
Autism cons: I will also notice the 3% shift in your tone from Tuesday to Wednesday and spend the next four hours running diagnostic checks on what it means and whether I caused it. I did not cause it. I will not be able to confirm that for some time.
I need a girl who’s significantly stronger than me, to the point I couldn’t even resist if I wanted, to pin me down in bed and fuck me senseless while calling me a good girl and then cuddle with me afterwards