Little late but around 7 months or so later, Im even more depressed, I have chronic Anorexia, I hate hate hate how i look, i wish i looked better, ive gotten a girlfriend that i love so much, but im scared she will one day leave me.
October 1st-Sunday
Decided To Make A Entry Everyday, I Might Add On To It Every So Often Through The Day, Im Doing This To See How Long It Will Take Till I Feel Better, But For Now Im Depressed And I Feel As So That No One Will Care If I Die, So Ima Keep Doing This To See If I
I eat because i want to get out of Rogers, it isnt fun and i hate it, What i realize is that, my depression wasnt as bad as it is now, i was happy with life, i wake up, go to school, go out with friends after, then home/sleep, repeat
Now, i have thoughts of ending myself all the time, and i hurt myself often, the only joy i have anymore is my gf and music, im not happy, i js want to be a normal kid for my age, thats it. I miss soccer, i miss boring school drama, i miss kid stuff,
Ik i havent posted much, but i have almost no time too, March 25-April 2, i was inpatient for Refeeding, and starting April 20~ i was assigned Rogers, before treatment, i would have less than 900 calories a day, after treatment, i can say that i am eating, but i dont enjoy it