10 YEARS SOBER 🙏🏾 I would’ve never imagined being here today after hitting rock bottom checking into rehab the night before the 2015 postseason. Early in my career, alcohol was a coping mechanism after losing my dad and navigating life’s ups and downs. Having the courage to tell somebody about my addiction changed my life. My thoughts go out to anyone facing their own journey. Just know you’re not alone and asking for help makes all the difference. Thank you to everyone who supported me along the way.
I’ve built a whole life on letting go
But really
Ultimately
It’s not up to me to let go
I put myself daily in a situation to ask for grace
And I wait patiently with the pain
Grief is all grief at once
You can’t just grieve one person or situation
You can’t just say
What happened today at pickleball sucked and now I’m haunted
It’s everything that ever hurt you
The dog you lost as a teenager
The first girl who broke up with you
All of it
When your mom is suicidal constantly and abusive
When your dad drinks all his meals and hits on your sisters friends
Your close friends are more important than air
When I grieve now
I don’t have to go all the way to the bottom like I once did
I’m not troubled by how my parents hurt me
Or how other things effected me
I can just be present for what ever the current thing is