// my best friend died last week. It's just now really sinking in. I'm scared, I'm broken, and in the real world I don't know how to talk about it. Everytime I try to say her name it feels like my lungs are on fire.
// Last night I nearly died and as cheesy as it sounds, it put a lot of things in perspective. I want you all to know how much you are loved and cherished. But due to these circumstances I will continue to reside in dms for a few more weeks. Be brave and know your loved. -Writer
//"Let's pretend:
we are happy
That our hearts aren't heavy
That our minds arent mangled
Let's pretend:
We are hopeful
That our stomachs aren't sinking
That our hands aren't humming
Let's pretend:
We can breathe
Because I'm one shallow breath from breaking"-K
Everyone, the cast, the crew, the entire community/fandom, and my family. My wife who never gives up on me @DetStefAFoster And my amazing kids. We will get through this. I'm not leaving. I don't know if the rant I just had made sense but I feel slightly better. Much love, lena❤
That has given so much to me. As someone who often walks the tight rope between wanting to live or not, I can tell you that the world the fosters shows, where nothing is perfect but the good doesn't stop trying gave me enough hope to save me many many times. I want to thank
Callies resilience, Marianas defiance, Jesus's gentleness, and judes acceptance. I'm not really sure who I am. Which sounds silly but maybe the largest tale away is to take what they have taught me and well, be me. (That thought terrifies me). I'm afraid of losing the community
The fosters made me feel like I was apart of something bigger, I wasn't lost anymore because I was where I belonged and to be honest, I'm beginning to feel lost again. I often tale on the roles I see on screen and without lenas heart, stefs courage, Brandon's dream,
// my wife and kids have voiced their feelings, I suppose it's my turn. I've always been the piece that didn't fit, the broken one, the outcast. I've always pushed people away, so afraid to lose that I never gain. My feelings aren't easily explained, but like many of you...
@DetStefAFoster@JudeAdamsFost *calls the kids, tells them that judes "tests" came back irregular and they want to keep him overnight, kids are worried but don't question it*