MysteryAxis

(Subhuman Degenerate) ME/CFS, Digestive Issues; Marxist, Atheist. Twitch: MysteryAxis. "Delusional Schizophrenic". Daniel Sherman.

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Favourite Philosophers Currently: Marx, Machiavelli, Lenin, Nietzsche.

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The media always blames whoever's at the head of the leading technology of the time for all the evils of the world during that given period (used to be Mark Zuckerberg with Facebook / Instagram, last decade, now it's the heads of AI companies).
Inspired by https://t.co/Cb4OpCZWxB

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"emotional blunting, apathy, hypobulia, anhedonia, indifference, difficulty or total inability in thinking, difficulty or total inability in concentrating, lack of initiative, attention deficits, & desocialization" ("sedation" also common); 3/3

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The vast majority of the Psychiatrist's claim that I have severe mental illness / "Schizophrenia" is the presence of "Negative Symptoms", which I have always said largely are actually caused by the medication that they put me on, or are caused by ME/CFS 1/3

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Turns out, this isn't actually uncommon (I've read many anecdotal accounts) & there's even a term for it as a recognized condition. It's called "Neuroleptic-induced deficit syndrome" & has very similar symptoms to the "Negative Symptoms" claim. Matches what I've always said. 2/3

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The recent deaths of a woman in Christchurch and a man in Wellington are an indictment of the successive National and Labour Party-led governments whose policies have led to soaring homelessness. https://t.co/qcZAQyAgZs

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Pretty sure at least 85% of my dating apps failure is due to me mentioning Chronic Illness & it's effects on my life in my bio. The rest is probably just physical appearance. Regardless, it's all caused by Chronic Illness anyway; chronic illness also prevents it from being fixed.

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People say that they "like honesty" & that honesty is "virtuous" & all this bullshit, then act poorly towards you when you're generally honest about something that they don't like / makes them uncomfortable (e.g. having Chronic Illness).

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Dating market is fucking bullshit these days. Only girls that ever like me on the apps are either severely unattractive (way worse than me), or have obvious mental-illness or personality issues. I don't have those issues like they do, so it's not just hypocrisy, either.

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Trying a new medication today, it's called "Bupropion". Finally my psychiatrist actually allowed something to change in q useful / positivr way after I asked for it for anhedonia / severe lack of enjoyment on this anti-dopamine & anti-serotonin "Risperidone" drug that's awful.

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Got a psychiatrist's appointment tomorrow, then gonna try nicotine patches at a low-dose to see if it makes my life feel any better (anhedonia, anti-dopamine & anti-serotonin effects of the drugs, etc).

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Tried to record a quick stream (1hr 38mins) at higher quality on OBS today. Ended up taking up 48 gigabytes lol. Fuck's sake. I'll have to query with ChatGPT how to get it to record better quality at a lower gb storage size so I can keep the recordings & not take too long upload.

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@nuconteaza1 He was asking like $500 nz, then $200 nz

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Just got scammed by some Indonesian crime ring, I got to see the girl's tits on videocall though so it's all good 😂
It was hot while it lasted 😂 I'm prolly fucked going forward but all goods 😁👍

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@nuconteaza1 I didn't pay it lol 😂

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She was like straight into it as well lmao, like got her tits out right away & starter massaging them & talking to me lol 😂 That's what I like to see, straight to the point 😁

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lol 😂

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All I really want out of life is a good romantic & sexual relationship, maybe kids in the future. That's it. Hopefully with an East-Asian girl. What else do I have to live for? Nothing at all. ME/CFS totally prevents it, I should just kill myself instead of trying to struggle.

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So fucking tired, & mentally & physically-fatigued, that I can't even go for a walk or do recording for long. I have to lie in bed for hours, it seems. Fuck this bullshit, I hate ME/CFD.

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Psychiatrists actively-ruin my health, refuse to recognize that they're doing it, & then, when given objective evidence of the harm being done, they still refuse to do or allow anything to be done to resolve these issues which they are actively & continuously causing.

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I'm so fucking hungry dieting today. Fuck Risperidone. Off of it I used to eat about 1.5 normal sized meals per day & was a healthy weight; now, it wants me to eat 15k - 20k kilojoules per day. I'm aiming to lose a kg per week, yet the hunger is so bad I can't do anything else.