The easiest way for me to deal with the grief of this loss is to bury it. Slap tf out of it when it tries to creep up on me like when I look at my daughter and see your face or when Im alone in my car and I swear I hear your laugh or when im about to break down and I hear you yell at me and say 'no me digas' and have to try my best to not lose my mind cuz!!.... I become verklempt.
I cant put it to words. It hurts more than I could ever put to words. I never allowed myself to grieve her... I refused to accept it like it was a bad fucking dream but each day that passed on, you weren't there to just comfort me with a look anymore....
Even in sickness you showed me strength.
I try every day to be better than I was yesterday just to try and be an ounce of the woman you were and raised me to be....
But today....
Forgive my weakness because its making me fold.... She left me 7yrs ago today and I'm still not ok....
RIP Grandma, I miss you tremendously ๐๐๐
7 years of missing you ๐ฆ๐๐๐
RIP Grandma 2/1/19
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Guess who I finally met IRL today with her not sick self lol. @MzGenieToo she really is an amazingly beautiful human being. Thanks for this opportunity #theBeth
Working on getting lil momma a puppy and literally cant afford anything else.
If anyone wants to help get gifts for her or my adult baby, even though he knows ill get him his stuff later, I would be super grateful ๐๐ฝ ๐ฅฒ
This year has sucked.
I genuinely could use a miracle.
This is my Amazon list with gifts for both of my babies this year. Whatever anyone can do, would be appreciated ๐ฅฐโค๏ธ
Pls share, also ๐
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