There's no point. Nothing I ever do will amount to anything worthwhile. I've wasted my life and the only thing I could hope for is a quick end. I have no drive, I have no goals, I have nothing. I've lived a life full of nothing, amounted to nothing and nothing is my reward.
@TheRedDragon You are the embodiment of cattle. You should have your rights taken away and be monitored heavily since you clearly have mental deficiencies.
So many times I hear "you can just do things" and I'm always faced with the fact that I have no creativity. I have no joy or passion for anything really. I've never been drawn to anything, never felt compelled to do anything. I've only ever been alive.
Months ago, I ended up pushing away the only people that at least pretended to give a shit about me. Life has been so much more quiet. I thought I could fix myself, thought I could change if I did something drastic. All I did was hurt myself more.
Hey @TeamYouTube and @YouTube for some reason I, as a vtuber have been demonetized for "Deceptive activity" and when I reached out for help via the email system. I was only quoted back with policies but not actually assisted/helped in any way. Please may I speak to a real human about this situation as I truly have 0 idea what is going on!