Just, to all the people I've met in my life, mostly on the internet. I hope you'll have a great fucking future, better than I do or ever had. Just forget I've ever existed.
all of that because I felt like I have nobody else to talk to. I had a family for god sake, but I never really told them the truths or anything.
Idk maybe I was just really confused back then, I don't fucking know.
But now, I just want to move on with my life. Leave this old shit behind or something. Not alot of people would probably understand the half of things I'm saying, because my whole life is a mess. Idfk at this point it felt oneof Goodnight punpun's chapter or something.
I had a boyfriend and a girlfriend back then, but they way I got them isn't really because I love them. In reality they're just using me to basically pleasure each other off and nothing else.
I used to be a lonely bitch, I didn't know how to talk to people and make friends irl. I whine alot and I was the type of person that would be easily manipulated.
and tbh I do alot of these I guess you could say 'art' where I post random shit whether it's my work in progress on 3D models or drawings or whatever. All of it is so I could just distract myself from the reality that I'm in.
@RiceRunnerZz I see. I might get this wrong but, this feeling of not being sad, grief or just feeling emotionally numb is something completely fine, I've been there. 5 months ago when my dad died I didn't even feel a thing the first time I heard the news and I was even confused with myself.
Might take a break... On everything, life been just buh idk. I just don't feel motivated at all.
So...
Just wanna say if I've been posting less art or haven't been seen online in general that's probably why.