The feeling of that loneliness gnawing at your heart and inside you, bothering you every day, is... horrible. I don't know what to do right now. I don't think I'll stay until I turn 19. Can I just give up now?..
I'm relapsing again, my heart aches, and well, a long-distance relationship? It's killing me even more. That person who seems to connect with me? They're not here. Sometimes I remember how alone I am, and that's why I shut myself away in my own world. I just a peace of shit.