I felt like I was turning into a ghoul. When I couldn't take it, when the pain and nausea was so much that it felt like all my guts were going to come up (they did) and that I'd turn inside out, I just started talking until I got an answer back.
Even tho right now you see me as a sensible and "well-behaved" (this word has another context in my language, but I can't find an exact translation) girl, I wasn't always like this, but because of the experiences I had,