But I still hope that one day, I can pull myself together. Even if I have to do it alone. Even if it takes everything in me. I hope I can become strong enough to choose myself again.
Thoughts of the Day
I woke up feeling heavy again. It feels like all the sadness and disappointments in my life are weighing on me at once. I keep searching for genuine happiness, but the more I look for it, the more I feel like I’m falling apart.
I’ve disrespected myself so many times, and the saddest part is that I’ve already accepted it. I’ve learned to live with it.Right now, I feel like no one is listening. I feel desperate for love, so desperate that sometimes I lose myself trying to find it.
Lately, I’ve felt exhausted-emotionally and mentally. It seems as though I’m constantly struggling to hold myself together, only to fall apart again. I acknowledge that I’m not in the best place right now. Still, I trust that in time, I’ll be okay.
My biggest flex is that I can do anything alone. My friends can’t go to café or travel with me. No problem. I’ll take myself on a date. Hindi na natin kailangan antayin ang iba para maging masaya.