I'm not toxic. I'm reactive. There's a person somewhere calling me difficult, and they're leaving out the part where they pushed every boundary I set, ignored every signal I gave, and then acted shocked when I finally stopped being gentle about it.
On my quiet days, I just hope I can accept whatever is happening in my life right now. Iโm tired of overthinking, tired of worrying about things beyond my control, tired of fighting battles inside my own mind. I just want to soften, to release the weight Iโve been holding, and find peace in simply being right here, as I am.
God, please put better people in my life. People who mean what they say and show it through their actions. Iโve spent enough time giving chances to people who only showed up when it benefited them. Enough time overlooking things I shouldโve paid attention to from the start.