I know things will be better, good things await me in the future, but its so hard to genuinely believe that when things keep getting harder. recently i had to go to the ER and mental hospital its gotten so bad. praying for a better future.
I try not to vent publicly cause its fucking embarrassing but i cant keep myself together anymore. thread or whtaver that will 100% be deleted some day.
Sure I’m not ACTUALLY alone, i have a friend or two but its not the same. nothing will ever replace them. there will always be a hole in my mind, in my heart, in my conscious and subconscious that just yearns for them.