@divdot Reading the replies has reminded me why I'm so fucking okay with not raiding anymore. Holy shit. Like I'm all for continuing if it's established "hey were still feeling momentum can we keep pushing while you dip?". This is just a hella case of bad communication.
In order to curb DS2 backseating, one of my community members made an in-browser (no download needed! just controller and browser) system that takes a clone of my latest save and gives a chatter 8 minutes to show me what they want me to do, showing on the stream live!
This time last year my life had absolutely no direction and I felt no future. Now I've seen 2 different friend groups in a month and had a great time, I feel secure in my life, and I passed my commercial driver's exam (first try!) and have financial security. Strange Journey.