Sitting down in a movie theater
looking around in anticipation
for the arrival of the others
one problem
i'm the only one here
who cares if I am alone
the others are missing out
An old man sitting at a diner alone
phone propped up on the salt n pepper shakers
grin as wide as his face
taking a bite out of his pot roast
gravy drips onto his shirt
refusing to drop his eyes from the phone
he grabs his napkin
dipping it in water
wiping the gravy off his shirt
want and need to get out of bed
but my battery level is near dry
caffeine fighting a losing battle
got to overcome the rust in my bones
and the mold permeating my mind
cover myself again with my blanket
i'll try again tomorrow
sitting alone in my bedroom
bright ceiling lighting
fighting against my dark mood
buzzing of electricity the only audible sound
against my deep breaths
in my head
the constant chatter of memories
and what ifs fight for my attention
for what feels like a few seconds
Life gives a different perspective
when you're pushed down
by a former friend
looking back up at them
standing above you
with that smug grin
standing back up
brushing yourself off
do you strike back?
or
turn your back
walk away
the laughter grows quieter
the further you get