Norian Vayle

Norian Vayle ⚔️ Fantasy Author | Creator of THERYS | Dark fantasy & ancient magic | Stateside files by day. Therys by night. | NO DMs

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

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[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

Apparently, going home to Wyoming for three weeks was supposed to be a break.
I’m still here.
There’s roughly another week to go.
So naturally, instead of resting, I somehow ended up with a woman named Nora Hale, a family ranch, an old Chevrolet, a military career, a courtroom, several unresolved relationships, enough buried history to make everyone uncomfortable — and an entire novel.
Excellent use of leave, really.
Those of you who have been around here for a while may have noticed that I’ve occasionally mentioned a legal career. Senior positions. Leadership. And, every now and then, the vague suggestion that not every chapter of my life involved sitting behind a desk.
Which brings us to Nora.
Major Nora Hale.
Army officer. Lawyer. Former special operations. Wyoming-born. Professionally incapable of leaving a problem alone once she notices that something doesn’t fit.
Completely fictional, obviously.
Probably.
That is, at least, the version my lawyer would recommend.
Somewhere between Wyoming, airports, old roads, too much coffee, and whatever part of my brain was supposed to be taking time off, Nora appeared.
Then she brought people with her.
A family.
A town.
An Army career.
Old friends.
Old scars.
A man she once knew far too well.
A ranch carrying problems nobody bothered to tell her about.
And a local situation that has the deeply irritating habit of becoming less local the closer she looks at it.
At some point I stopped asking whether I was developing an idea.
I was writing a novel.
NO QUIET GROUND is the first Nora Hale story.
It moves through Wyoming ranch country, military installations, courtrooms, investigations, family dinners, old loyalties, violence, humor, attraction, loss — and the uncomfortable realization that sometimes the thing waiting for you at home is larger than the thing you thought you were leaving behind.
It is not simply a military thriller.
It is not simply a legal story.
It is not simply a crime novel.
And thankfully, Nora has shown very little interest in behaving politely enough to fit into one genre.
I sympathize.
Before anyone starts preparing a funeral for Therys: don’t.
The Shattered World is still very much alive, still growing, and still populated by people making questionable decisions with swords, fire, old grudges and consequences wildly disproportionate to their confidence.
Nora Hale is simply another door.
A very different one.
And now both finally have somewhere to live.
The new Norian Vayle author site is live:
https://t.co/YzRnZ1mwCs
You can step into Nora’s world, learn more about No Quiet Ground, and read the opening of the novel — beginning at 4:43 A.M. in Grafenwoehr, Germany.
Therys is there too, with a road back into the Shattered World.
And I still have about a week left in Wyoming.
Which, considering what happened during the first two, is probably more threatening than it sounds.
As for how much of any of this is fiction…
I write under a pen name for a reason.
— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

Apparently, going home to Wyoming for three weeks was supposed to be a break.
I’m still here.
There’s roughly another week to go.
So naturally, instead of resting, I somehow ended up with a woman named Nora Hale, a family ranch, an old Chevrolet, a military career, a courtroom, several unresolved relationships, enough buried history to make everyone uncomfortable — and an entire novel.
Excellent use of leave, really.
Those of you who have been around here for a while may have noticed that I’ve occasionally mentioned a legal career. Senior positions. Leadership. And, every now and then, the vague suggestion that not every chapter of my life involved sitting behind a desk.
Which brings us to Nora.
Major Nora Hale.
Army officer. Lawyer. Former special operations. Wyoming-born. Professionally incapable of leaving a problem alone once she notices that something doesn’t fit.
Completely fictional, obviously.
Probably.
That is, at least, the version my lawyer would recommend.
Somewhere between Wyoming, airports, old roads, too much coffee, and whatever part of my brain was supposed to be taking time off, Nora appeared.
Then she brought people with her.
A family.
A town.
An Army career.
Old friends.
Old scars.
A man she once knew far too well.
A ranch carrying problems nobody bothered to tell her about.
And a local situation that has the deeply irritating habit of becoming less local the closer she looks at it.
At some point I stopped asking whether I was developing an idea.
I was writing a novel.
NO QUIET GROUND is the first Nora Hale story.
It moves through Wyoming ranch country, military installations, courtrooms, investigations, family dinners, old loyalties, violence, humor, attraction, loss — and the uncomfortable realization that sometimes the thing waiting for you at home is larger than the thing you thought you were leaving behind.
It is not simply a military thriller.
It is not simply a legal story.
It is not simply a crime novel.
And thankfully, Nora has shown very little interest in behaving politely enough to fit into one genre.
I sympathize.
Before anyone starts preparing a funeral for Therys: don’t.
The Shattered World is still very much alive, still growing, and still populated by people making questionable decisions with swords, fire, old grudges and consequences wildly disproportionate to their confidence.
Nora Hale is simply another door.
A very different one.
And now both finally have somewhere to live.
The new Norian Vayle author site is live:
https://t.co/YzRnZ1mwCs
You can step into Nora’s world, learn more about No Quiet Ground, and read the opening of the novel — beginning at 4:43 A.M. in Grafenwoehr, Germany.
Therys is there too, with a road back into the Shattered World.
And I still have about a week left in Wyoming.
Which, considering what happened during the first two, is probably more threatening than it sounds.
As for how much of any of this is fiction…
I write under a pen name for a reason.
— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

So. A little while ago, I said I was going home to Wyoming.
Apparently, I should have been more careful with that sentence.
Because somewhere between that post, an airport, and whatever part of my brain was supposed to be minding its own business, a woman named Nora Hale showed up.
For the record, I did not return from Wyoming as a U.S. Army Major with a JAG career, an old Chevrolet K20, two brothers, a family ranch, and enough unresolved history to fill several books.
Probably.
Nora did.
And then she refused to leave.
Before anyone asks: Therys is fine. 😄
The Shattered World is still growing, its stories are still moving forward, and there are people over there who would probably be very annoyed if I abandoned them now.
This is simply… something else.
Something I didn’t plan.
Nora started as a voice. Then a scene. Then Wyoming became more than a background. Her family appeared. Her Army career took shape. Daniel Mercer walked into the room. An old Chevrolet refused to stay dead.
And at some point I realized I wasn’t playing with an idea anymore.
I was writing a novel.
A very different one.
NO QUIET GROUND is a contemporary thriller and the beginning of the Nora Hale series.
No ancient kingdoms. No magic. No shattered world.
Just Wyoming. The U.S. Army. Courtrooms. Old friendships. Family. Things buried for too long. And a woman who has spent so many years being Major Hale that going home may require her to remember who Nora was first.
And since she has apparently taken over a fairly significant part of my writing life, I think it’s time you met her properly.
Here’s a small piece from the manuscript:
—
Mercer set the mug down.
“You’re going on leave, Nora. Not working from Wyoming with a different view out the window.”
“If something happens that genuinely requires you, I know how to find you. For seventy-five days, the work phone stays here.”
That door was closed too.
Nora stood there with the itinerary in one hand.
For the first time in years, tomorrow held nothing she was expected to solve.
No witness waiting.
No file open on her desk.
No problem that would become hers simply because she happened to notice it before someone else did.
The emptiness of it should have felt like relief.
Instead it felt like standing one step beyond solid ground.
Mercer watched her reach that realization and, for once, did not try to soften it.
“Go home,” he said. “Sleep. Get bored. Fight with your brothers. Let your mother feed you. Remember there was a Nora Hale before the Army needed something from her every morning.”
Nora looked down at the itinerary.
Then back at the man who had first met her in a hospital bed ten years earlier and had apparently decided he was not willing to meet that version of her twice.
She opened the door.
“Still a son of a bitch.”
Mercer’s laugh followed her into the hallway.
“Pack tonight.”
—
NO QUIET GROUND
A Nora Hale novel.
Some battles don’t end when you come home.
I’ll be sharing more soon — Nora, the people around her, Wyoming, pieces from the manuscript, and some of what happens behind the scenes while this world keeps getting bigger.
I’m also building a new home for all of this. A proper Norian Vayle author site is on the way — not just for Nora, and not just for Therys, but for the stories and worlds still to come.
Which, considering what happened the last time I casually mentioned Wyoming, may be a dangerous thing to say.
— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

So. A little while ago, I said I was going home to Wyoming.
Apparently, I should have been more careful with that sentence.
Because somewhere between that post, an airport, and whatever part of my brain was supposed to be minding its own business, a woman named Nora Hale showed up.
For the record, I did not return from Wyoming as a U.S. Army Major with a JAG career, an old Chevrolet K20, two brothers, a family ranch, and enough unresolved history to fill several books.
Probably.
Nora did.
And then she refused to leave.
Before anyone asks: Therys is fine. 😄
The Shattered World is still growing, its stories are still moving forward, and there are people over there who would probably be very annoyed if I abandoned them now.
This is simply… something else.
Something I didn’t plan.
Nora started as a voice. Then a scene. Then Wyoming became more than a background. Her family appeared. Her Army career took shape. Daniel Mercer walked into the room. An old Chevrolet refused to stay dead.
And at some point I realized I wasn’t playing with an idea anymore.
I was writing a novel.
A very different one.
NO QUIET GROUND is a contemporary thriller and the beginning of the Nora Hale series.
No ancient kingdoms. No magic. No shattered world.
Just Wyoming. The U.S. Army. Courtrooms. Old friendships. Family. Things buried for too long. And a woman who has spent so many years being Major Hale that going home may require her to remember who Nora was first.
And since she has apparently taken over a fairly significant part of my writing life, I think it’s time you met her properly.
Here’s a small piece from the manuscript:
—
Mercer set the mug down.
“You’re going on leave, Nora. Not working from Wyoming with a different view out the window.”
“If something happens that genuinely requires you, I know how to find you. For seventy-five days, the work phone stays here.”
That door was closed too.
Nora stood there with the itinerary in one hand.
For the first time in years, tomorrow held nothing she was expected to solve.
No witness waiting.
No file open on her desk.
No problem that would become hers simply because she happened to notice it before someone else did.
The emptiness of it should have felt like relief.
Instead it felt like standing one step beyond solid ground.
Mercer watched her reach that realization and, for once, did not try to soften it.
“Go home,” he said. “Sleep. Get bored. Fight with your brothers. Let your mother feed you. Remember there was a Nora Hale before the Army needed something from her every morning.”
Nora looked down at the itinerary.
Then back at the man who had first met her in a hospital bed ten years earlier and had apparently decided he was not willing to meet that version of her twice.
She opened the door.
“Still a son of a bitch.”
Mercer’s laugh followed her into the hallway.
“Pack tonight.”
—
NO QUIET GROUND
A Nora Hale novel.
Some battles don’t end when you come home.
I’ll be sharing more soon — Nora, the people around her, Wyoming, pieces from the manuscript, and some of what happens behind the scenes while this world keeps getting bigger.
I’m also building a new home for all of this. A proper Norian Vayle author site is on the way — not just for Nora, and not just for Therys, but for the stories and worlds still to come.
Which, considering what happened the last time I casually mentioned Wyoming, may be a dangerous thing to say.
— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

Some Roads Still Know Your Name

I have spent enough years in Europe that I can genuinely call it home.
I love my life there. I love my work too, even on the days when it appears personally committed to testing the structural integrity of my patience.
I spent well over a decade building the career I have now. These days there are serious rooms, difficult decisions, people under my responsibility and moments when everyone around a table suddenly becomes very interested in what I am going to say next.
There are also days when apparently nobody, regardless of rank, title or education, can answer an email containing more than one question.
Balance.Europe has given me more than I ever expected from it. A career I am proud of. People I care about. A life that is mine.
It is home.And absolutely none of that prepared me for what it would feel like to see Wyoming again after two years.
The journey was long, although not as unpleasant as it could have been.
I learned years ago that there are two things I am increasingly unwilling to do voluntarily: argue with strangers before coffee and spend ten hours folded into an economy seat while pretending my spine has no opinions.
So yes, I flew comfortably.
There are also occasional advantages attached to the particular kind of work I do and to certain documents that come with it. Airports happen to be one of them.
I am not above appreciating this.Character is important.
So is crossing an ocean without requiring orthopedic intervention afterward.
But somewhere during the final flight, none of that mattered anymore.
Wyoming appeared beneath us.And I stopped doing everything.
No reading. No messages. No pretending to use the remaining time productively.
I just looked out of the window.
The colours came first.
Then the space.
Then that absurdly enormous sky.
That particular dry openness where the horizon seems to have been placed unnecessarily far away.
I recognised it before I recognised anything in it.
And that was apparently enough.
I cried.Not dramatically.Just those quiet tears that arrive without requesting permission and make you very grateful for a window seat.
I turned slightly toward the glass and made a dignified attempt to look like a woman thoughtfully contemplating the landscape rather than a thirty-something professional whose emotional stability had just been defeated by geography.
I believe the cabin crew politely chose to participate in this fiction.Excellent service. By the time I reached arrivals, I had recovered.
This statement is technically true if we define recovered generously.Then I saw my brother.
His daughter was beside him.
And Dad was standing there too.
I stopped. Dad is not an airport person.
Dad is not particularly an emotional-display person either.
My father belongs to the school of affection where silently repairing something on your truck, returning the keys and never mentioning it again constitutes a perfectly adequate declaration of love.
So the fact that he had come mattered.
A lot. My brother saw me first.
His eyes travelled over the trousers, blouse, jacket and shoes I had apparently decided were necessary for crossing an ocean.
He grinned.
“Jesus, Norian. Are we going home or do you have court first?”
And there it was.Two years.Thousands of miles.More than a decade building a career.
All the responsibility waiting for me back in Europe.
And eleven seconds with my older brother reduced me immediately to his little sister.
Some hierarchies are apparently permanent.
His daughter reached me at approximately missile velocity.
I dropped whatever dignity I had left along with my bag and caught her.
I laughed.She squeezed harder.
And suddenly I was crying again.
My brother hugged me next, still laughing at me, although his hug lasted just a little longer than the joke required.
I noticed.I did not mention it.Sibling diplomacy.Then I looked at Dad.
For half a second neither of us moved.
I had imagined that moment more times than I would ever admit.
In several versions I said something clever.
In one I said something profound.
Reality was less sophisticated.
I walked straight over and hugged him.
And Dad hugged me back.
Properly.That nearly finished me.
My father can communicate an astonishing range of emotions using variations of one sound.
There is hmm.
There is the longer hmmm, which usually means he disagrees but has decided life will explain the problem to you more efficiently.
Then there is the extremely rare hmm-hmm, which can mean anything from that might actually work to I am very proud of you, but I would rather rebuild a transmission than discuss what I am currently feeling.
This time there was no hmm.
He just held me.
I buried my face against him and cried.
Nobody made a joke.
Even my brother knew better.
Eventually Dad gave my back two quiet pats.
“Good to have you home, kid.”
From my father, this is essentially Shakespeare.
And then, because emotional sincerity in my family apparently has a strict time limit, my brother picked up my bag and announced that we should get moving before I started crying at the rental-car signs.
Normal service had resumed.The drive home is long enough for Casper to disappear behind you properly.
I rolled the window down almost immediately.
My brother pointed out that the vehicle had perfectly functional climate control.
I pointed out that I had not crossed the Atlantic to breathe filtered air in Wyoming.
So the window stayed down.
The air was cool and dry. Grass. Dust. Sun-warmed earth.
And space.God, I had missed the space. Dad did not say much.
He rarely does when there is nothing that needs saying.
But every so often I caught him looking at me in the mirror.
Our eyes would meet.
There would be that tiny smile.
Then he would look back at the road.
Once:“Hmm-hmm.”
I smiled out of the window.I knew exactly what it meant.
My brother filled most of the remaining silence anyway. Germany. Work. BJJ. Writing. Whether I was still staying awake until ridiculous hours because imaginary people were apparently incapable of solving their problems during normal business hours.
The usual.
Then the roads started becoming familiar.
Not I think I remember this familiar.
Mine. And that was when the memories began.
One bend reminded me of school.
Another brought back a summer evening I had not thought about in years.
Then an old road disappeared off toward the fields and suddenly I remembered driving it on a dirt bike with a backpack bouncing against my shoulders because I was late for school.
I was never really the cheerleader type.Nothing against cheerleaders.
I simply had two older brothers and access to machinery.
Different developmental pathway.
I grew up on a ranch, which leads people to assume I must have spent my childhood gracefully riding horses across sunsets.I did not.I love horses.I can ride.
I just never particularly loved being on one.
My family still regards this as a minor defect in an otherwise serviceable daughter.
Engines were different.
If it had wheels, tracks, gears or an ignition key, I wanted to know how it worked and whether I was allowed to drive it.
The answer to the second question was occasionally no.
This proved surprisingly ineffective.
I was driving a quad around the ranch at an age when I still had to climb onto certain kitchen counters to reach things.
Then came tractors.
Pickups. Farm machinery.Dirt bikes.Especially dirt bikes.
My first one convinced me, within perhaps fifteen minutes, that I possessed extraordinary natural talent.
My brothers corrected this misconception by racing me.
Repeatedly.And beating me.Repeatedly.
Naturally, I interpreted this not as evidence that they were better riders, but as a problem requiring further research.
So I practised.Constantly.
I learned balance. Corners. Throttle control. How the ground changes after rain. How loose dirt behaves when you are considerably more confident than competent.
There is still a bend not far from home where gravity once delivered a particularly comprehensive lesson on that last subject.
I remember the bike going sideways.
I remember the ground arriving much faster than expected.
I remember the hospital.I remember Mom looking as though she intended to murder me immediately after confirming that I was alive.
And I remember Dad asking whether I had finally learned something.
I had.I learned that I wanted to get back on the bike.
He was thrilled.That is sarcasm.
A little farther on was another road where my brothers and I once raced home and later produced three completely independent and equally fictional accounts of the speed involved.
Then I remembered the local sheriff stopping me once when I had taken a route across land I absolutely knew I was not supposed to be crossing on my way to school.
I explained that I was late.
He explained that this was not a legal principle.
I thought my argument had considerable merit.
He disagreed.Wyoming jurisprudence can be very rigid.
Then came school dances.Summer nights.
The period of my life when I was convinced adults understood absolutely nothing.
A barn where I had my first proper kiss with a boy from a ranch a couple of properties over.
I am not identifying the barn.I am definitely not identifying the boy.
Wyoming is far too small for that level of transparency.
I found myself smiling constantly.
Every road seemed to contain something.
A stupid decision.A good summer.A fight with one of my brothers.A place where we raced.
A fence Dad made me repair because I was the reason it required repairing.
People I had forgotten I remembered.
Versions of myself I had not thought about for years.
It felt as though pieces of my childhood had simply been sitting beside those roads waiting for me to come back and collect them.
At some point my brother mentioned, almost casually, that my old dirt bike was still in one of the barns.
I turned my head so quickly he laughed.
Apparently my face had revealed too much.
For several glorious seconds I was already planning tomorrow.
Then he added that tomorrow morning Dad needed help early.The motorcycle, apparently, had waited two years and could survive another day.Tyranny.
Dad's mouth moved slightly in the mirror.
Not quite a smile.
Dangerously close.
Then the mountains appeared differently in the distance.
The country became more familiar still.
The fences.The fields.
The turns I no longer needed to think about.
And finally we turned onto the road leading to the ranch.
That was when my chest tightened.
Because I knew every part of it.
I knew where the road dipped.
I knew where the trees would appear.
I knew where the first buildings would become visible.
Then I saw the house.Home.And then I noticed the cars.
Too many cars.Far too many.I looked at my brother.
He suddenly became extremely interested in the view ahead.I knew that expression.He had been using versions of it since childhood.
“What did you do?”
He smiled.That was all I got.
We pulled in.Before I had even properly opened the door, the house opened. Mom came out first.Then my other brother.
His family.nAn aunt. An uncle.Cousins.
People I had not expected to see until days later.
They had known when I was coming.They had come over just to be there when I arrived.
And that was it.
Whatever remained of the composed, responsible woman who had left Europe was officially unavailable.
I made some ridiculous sound and ran toward my mother.
Actually ran.Thirty-something years old.
A grown woman with a serious job, serious responsibilities and enough professional authority that people occasionally become visibly nervous when I ask them to close the door before a conversation.
And I ran to my mother like I was ten.
She opened her arms.
I hit her hard enough that we both stumbled.
She laughed.I laughed.Then she cried. So I cried.
Then somehow we were laughing and crying simultaneously while she held my face in both hands and looked at me as though two years of video calls had provided insufficient proof that I still existed.
“Oh, honey.”
That was enough to start me again.
Then, naturally:
“Are you eating properly? Look at you.”
There it was.
I had crossed an ocean.
Motherhood had crossed directly to nutritional assessment.
Before I could defend myself, one of my brothers made some observation about Europeans apparently not having food.I looked at him.
He had put on a little weight since I last saw him.
I merely let my eyes travel downward for a second and back up.He understood.
I did not need to say a word.
Growth.Maturity.Self-control.
Mom saw it anyway and told both of us to behave.
I had been home approximately three minutes.
Perfect.
Then everyone seemed to arrive at once.
Arms around me.
Hands on my shoulders.
Someone kissing my cheek.
Questions from three directions.
How was Germany?
How long exactly was I staying?
How was the flight?
Was I really working as much as Mom said?
Did I still like Europe?
How was the writing?
What was happening with that group I had started teaching?
And, inevitably, a couple of careful questions circling around my work.
Nobody in my family asks too much about that anymore.
They know enough.
They know I love it.
They know it took me years to get where I am.
They know the responsibility has become considerably heavier than it used to be.
And they know there are parts of my professional life I simply do not bring home to the dinner table.
That has always been enough for them.
Mom eventually started waving people away from me.
“Let her breathe. She just got here.”
Then immediately turned back to me and asked again whether I had eaten.
Consistency is important.
My brothers were quieter about being happy to see me.They always have been.
They made jokes.Insulted my shoes.
Commented on my accent, which they insist has changed and I insist absolutely has not.
One informed me that whatever impressive things I apparently do in Europe, those shoes were not suitable for anything involving cattle.
But every so often one of them would put a hand on my shoulder as he passed.
Or I would catch one of them simply looking at me and smiling.They had missed me.They would rather be trampled by livestock than phrase it exactly that way.I know my brothers.
Dad stayed slightly back from the chaos.
Watching.That tiny smile still there.
I looked at him once across everyone.
He gave me a small nod.
Hmm-hmm.
And standing there, surrounded by noise and people talking over each other, Mom touching my arm every few minutes as if checking I had not disappeared again, my brothers already making up for two years of insufficient harassment, the smell of hay and earth and animals drifting across the yard—
I realised something.
You can build another home.
A real one.
You can cross an ocean and make a life somewhere else. You can love another country, another continent. You can find work that matters enormously to you. People who matter. Places and routines that become yours.
None of that is less real because somewhere else came first.
And coming back does not make the life you built elsewhere smaller either.
Maybe home is not a competition.
Maybe sometimes you are simply lucky enough to have more than one place capable of breaking your heart a little when you leave it.
Later, when the first wave of chaos had finally settled and I had managed to put my luggage somewhere vaguely sensible, my phone buzzed.
My BJJ coach in Germany.
A photo.Thirteen exhausted white belts sitting on the mat after Friday training, displaying the unmistakable expression of people who had recently reconsidered several recreational choices.
Underneath:
They survived. Barely. Come back soon.I laughed.
Then looked at it again.
Which was a tactical error.
Europe was eight hours ahead.
Their Friday evening was ending while my Wyoming day was still unfolding.
I stood there on the ranch where I grew up, after two years away, looking at thirteen people thousands of miles across the Atlantic who had somehow become another little group I cared about.
Behind me, my family was arguing about food.
Somewhere nearby, livestock were making livestock noises.
My old dirt bike was apparently still waiting in a barn.
And on my phone was another piece of my life, eight hours ahead.
I cried again.Obviously.
At this point we should probably stop pretending this was an isolated incident.
So yes.I am home.Really home.
Jet-lagged, emotionally compromised, apparently too thin according to my mother, overdressed according to my brothers, and already informed that my professional responsibilities in Europe grant me precisely zero authority on a Wyoming ranch before breakfast.
As it should be.I have missed this place.More than I knew.
And for the next few weeks, if anyone needs me, I will be somewhere beneath an absurdly large Wyoming sky, relearning how to be the youngest child in this family.
Although judging by the first few hours, I am not entirely sure I ever forgot.

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

I disappeared again for a few days.

I know. Absolutely flawless social media strategy. 😄

First, for anyone who read my last rather… substantial post: the story involving the two ladies mentioned there has, from my side at least, reached its natural conclusion.
No sequel.
No spin-off.
No director’s cut.
We move on.
Other than that, I’ve mostly been trying to get everything sorted before I head home to Wyoming next week. Friday I trained my little group, work got done, life behaved itself.
And then this weekend arrived and, for reasons I still can’t entirely explain, I felt strangely out of place.
Nothing dramatic happened.
That was actually the problem.
Normally I’m very good at being alone.
Give me coffee, music, a laptop and several imaginary people whose emotional stability I am professionally responsible for destroying, and I can happily disappear for days.
But this weekend something felt missing.
Not romance, necessarily.
Just… connection.
A conversation with another human being that doesn’t eventually turn into a sales pitch, a publishing opportunity, a miraculous career plan, crypto, “investment advice,” or someone promising to make me internationally famous by next Tuesday.
Apparently I was feeling reckless.
So I registered on an international dating site.
Yes.
I am fully aware that I’ve spent the last few months saying I’m not ready for another relationship.
Apparently my personality now includes conducting live experiments against my own previous statements.
Maybe I’m ready.
Maybe I’m not.
After approximately thirty-six hours of online dating, the preliminary research suggests:
absolutely not. 😂
What an extraordinary little wildlife reserve this is.
There were some genuinely nice conversations.
There’s even someone I’m still speaking to. Lovely person. Easy conversation.
But that “something extra”?
No.
Then there was another conversation that was actually really good.
Smart.
Funny.
Natural.
No obvious warning sirens.
And then, from one perfectly normal message to the next—
gone.
Ghosted.
Just evaporated into the digital fog.
I genuinely stared at my phone thinking:
Was there an announcement I missed?
Is this considered communication now?
Did we collectively decide that saying “I don’t think this is going anywhere” was too emotionally advanced, so disappearing without explanation became the mature alternative?
Maybe I’m simply too old for modern dating.
Because I could have sworn there used to be several stages between “I really enjoy talking to you” and becoming a missing-person case.
And yes, before someone says it:
“But Norian, surely dating is easy for you.”

Getting attention?
Probably easier than for some people. I’m not going to perform false modesty for the internet.
Keeping that attention once an actual conversation starts?
Different subject entirely.
The moment some men discover what I do, how much I work, that I write, that I’m independent, that I have my own plans, or—God forbid—that I can hold an opinion for more than two paragraphs…
you can almost hear the reversing alarm.

Beep.

Beep.

Beep.
And off they go.
Which is slightly unfortunate because, despite available evidence, I still consider myself a relatively normal woman.
My fictional characters would probably object.
But they’ve suffered enough because of me, so their testimony is compromised.
The funny part is that everyone seems to complain about the same thing.
Women say there are no decent men.
Men say nobody gives them a chance.
Everyone says they want honesty.
Everyone says they want meaningful conversation.
Everyone says they’re tired of shallow connections.
And then another human being actually appears and people behave as though basic communication requires a security clearance.
I see women online constantly talking about loneliness and asking where all the good men went.
Meanwhile I have male friends who tell me they’ve politely messaged women saying exactly those things and been treated like they personally caused the collapse of Western civilization.
And men are hardly innocent.
Give some of them fifteen messages and you can practically predict the script.
Compliment.
Another compliment.
Question that is suddenly far too personal.
Tragic backstory.
Military deployment.
Crypto.Investment.Emergency. Money.
At this point, by message number three, my internal fraud department has already opened a case file.
I’m half expecting myself to ask:
“Before we continue, could you please provide two forms of identification and proof that you are not currently stationed on an oil rig?”
And maybe that’s the part that is actually a little sad.
Not for me personally.
I’ll survive my heroic thirty-six-hour dating career.
But for all of us.
Because we’ve become so trained by scams, ghosting, algorithms, disposable conversations and people constantly trying to extract something from one another that simple human connection now comes with a background check.
Everyone wants to meet someone genuine.
But everyone is terrified that the genuine person might secretly be selling Bitcoin.
I think that’s what I was missing this weekend.
Not necessarily a boyfriend.
Not some cinematic romance.
Not somebody to “complete me.”
I’m quite capable of completing my own paperwork, thank you.
Just someone you can talk to occasionally without wondering what the hidden transaction is.
Someone who asks how your day was because they actually want to know.
Someone who doesn’t disappear when you reveal that you have a brain, a career, baggage, opinions and a life that existed before they arrived.
Apparently this is now considered an unusually demanding specification.
Anyway. My return to online dating lasted approximately a day and a half.
A magnificent campaign.Several lessons were learned.
Numerous anthropological observations were recorded.
One or two perfectly nice humans were located.
No boyfriend was acquired.
Civilization remains unstable.
And honestly, I’m fine with that.
Next week I’m going home to Wyoming anyway.
I have work to finish, people to see, stories to write and fictional lives to complicate.
Those people are considerably easier to manage.
They can’t ghost me.
They can’t sell me crypto.
And if one of them suddenly disappears in the middle of a conversation…
at least I know who killed them. 😄

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

Apparently, Friday Had a Sequel

I had a feeling I was going to feel Friday’s little BJJ adventure the next day.
I underestimated just how enthusiastically my body intended to participate in the review.
Saturday morning, I woke up with the vague but determined idea that I was still going for a run. Because apparently I enjoy making questionable decisions before coffee.
I also have a weakness for doughnuts.
Unfortunately, doughnuts appear to have a weakness for settling around my waist.
So, naturally, running had seemed like a sensible compromise.
Then I got out of bed.
That was the first problem.
The second was looking down.
My legs looked as though I had lost a disagreement with a paint palette. Blue, green, purple. My side was not much better.
I have trained long enough to be used to soreness. Pain is not exactly unfamiliar territory, and as I mentioned before, I am not particularly fragile.
But there is a difference between “I trained hard yesterday” and “I appear to have been professionally beaten with decorative intent.”
This was closer to the second.
So that was the end of the running plan.
Skirts have also been temporarily suspended from active duty.
At least anything above the knee.
I do still have standards.
I considered yoga instead.
My body considered this proposal for approximately six seconds and rejected it unanimously.
So I did what any reasonable adult does when exercise, fashion and dignity have all become temporarily inconvenient.
I went back to my imaginary people.
I started writing again on Saturday afternoon and, somehow, disappeared into Therys for hours. Which was actually exactly what I needed.
There is something oddly comforting about spending time with fictional characters whose problems are, objectively speaking, much worse than bruised thighs.
At around two in the morning, I realised three things.
I had barely eaten.
I should probably sleep.
And I had once again managed to lose most of a day inside a world that does not technically exist.
Productive.
Sunday was more or less the same, although by then I was moving slightly more like a normal human being.
Progress.
And now it is Monday.
Work is getting done. Decisions are being made. I remain outwardly functional.
But the closer I get to going home to Wyoming, the more difficult it becomes to pretend that a significant percentage of my brain is not already there.
I am still working.
I am simply working while mentally counting down.
Very professionally, of course.

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

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Apparently, there was a small misunderstanding about my Friday BJJ group. By “small misunderstanding,” I mean I thought my coach was asking me to take the group for a few Fridays. He apparently meant: Congratulations. They’re yours.
That became clear today. I’m not entirely sure which part of my face betrayed the fact that this was new information to me, but apparently something did, because he laughed and explained that yes, he actually wants me to take this group for the foreseeable future.
Oh.
Right.
Excellent.
Good to know. 😏
The strange thing is, I genuinely enjoyed teaching them last time. I wrote about that already. What I didn’t expect was for it to become my group. We started with seven people. Today there were thirteen.
So either word is spreading that I’m doing something right, or there has been a catastrophic administrative error and nobody has noticed yet. I’m currently allowing both possibilities equal consideration.
I’ve been doing BJJ for close to ten years. I know what I’m doing on the mat. I’m comfortable there. I know the techniques, I know my body, and I know what it feels like to get something spectacularly wrong and spend the following thirty seconds reconsidering several of my life choices.

But teaching is different. Very different.

Responsibility itself is not new to me. In my professional life I lead people, make decisions, carry responsibility for outcomes, and deal with situations where “well, that probably should have gone differently” is not always an especially charming post-event analysis. There are people who rely on my judgment, there are decisions that have consequences, and there are days when I spend more time solving other people’s problems than remembering whether I’ve actually eaten lunch.
So no, the concept of responsibility does not normally make me nervous. If anything, I’m probably a little too comfortable with it.
Which makes it especially entertaining that you can put thirteen people in gis in front of me and suddenly some deeply unhelpful part of my brain goes:
Wait. They’re looking at ME?
Wonderful. 😏
And I think that’s because this feels different. At work, responsibility is structured. There are rules, procedures, experience, expectations. You know the framework you’re operating inside, even when the day itself decides to set fire to the framework for entertainment.
But when someone is learning something you’ve loved for almost a decade, you’re not simply showing them where to put an arm, how to shift their weight, or why leaving that particular limb where it is may shortly become an educational experience.
You’re helping shape what BJJ becomes for them.
And I remember being a beginner. Very clearly.
I remember how much the right coach mattered. There’s an enormous difference between someone who knows BJJ and someone who makes you want to come back next week. Someone who pushes you without making you feel stupid for not knowing something yet. Someone who notices when you’re ready for a little more—and when you’re absolutely not.
That responsibility feels strangely more personal than some much bigger responsibilities I deal with elsewhere in my life.
Which is mildly inconvenient, because self-doubt has never exactly been one of my defining personality traits. 😏
And yet, there I was today, genuinely happy, ridiculously proud, slightly intimidated, and looking at thirteen people thinking:
Well. Apparently I have a BJJ group now.
The best part came when I reminded my coach that I’m going home to Wyoming in two weeks and I’ll be away for almost three.

“So I’ll miss three Fridays.”
He just shrugged.
“No problem. I’ll take them until you’re back.”
Until I’m back.
There was something suspiciously permanent about those words.
So let me get this straight. I have only just discovered that I apparently have my own group, and my first significant act as their instructor is to disappear across the Atlantic for nearly three weeks.
Excellent leadership, Norian.
Truly inspirational. 😂
Of course, they’ll be perfectly fine. My coach will take them while I’m away, and then apparently they’re handed straight back to me when I return.
And strangely enough, underneath all the jokes, I’m really happy about that.
The fact that some of them actually asked whether I could teach them again means more to me than I expected. My coach trusting me with the group means even more.
It also means I’ll have to prepare differently now. Not just turn up, train hard, go home and complain the following morning that somebody has apparently replaced all my muscles with concrete.
I’ll have to think ahead. What they need. What we worked on last time. Who struggled with what. Who needs pushing. Who needs slowing down. How one session connects to the next.
Apparently my Friday evening hobby has developed planning, personnel responsibility and continuity requirements.
Because evidently I didn’t have enough of those during the week. 😏
Still, thirteen people came today. They trained. They laughed. They worked hard.
And when it was over, I realised something rather inconvenient:
I’m already looking forward to teaching them again.
Even if I’m still getting used to saying my group without looking over my shoulder to see who everyone is actually talking about.
Now I just have to teach them for two more Fridays, abandon them for Wyoming, come back three weeks later and pretend this entire development hasn’t made me absurdly proud.
Should be easy.
I’m known for being emotionally restrained.

Obviously. 😏

— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

I’m beginning to suspect that approving my trip home to Wyoming was a serious mistake for my productivity. Physically, I’m still in Europe. Mentally, I’m already somewhere in Wyoming, probably staring at mountains and behaving as though emails are a problem invented by other people. I’m trying to work. I really am. Unfortunately, my brain has apparently decided that “going home in two weeks” is now a full-time occupation. So naturally, during one of my extremely disciplined and professionally productive moments today, I opened TikTok. Mistake number two. 😏

I came across a video of someone responding to a rude comment. Nothing unusual there. The internet has trolls. I have them too. Anyone who puts opinions, work, books, art, their face, or apparently oxygen onto the internet will eventually meet someone who considers “you’re an idiot” a valuable contribution to public discourse. Fine. What fascinated me was what happened next. The creator spent almost five minutes explaining how completely unaffected she was by this comment. Five minutes. Very loudly. Very angrily. With vocabulary that suggested she had personally raided several dictionaries for additional ammunition.

And I sat there thinking: Ma’am… I don’t think this person is living rent-free in your head anymore. I think you gave them the master bedroom. 😏

And this isn’t really about her. I see versions of this constantly. Someone says something rude. Then comes the screenshot, the response video, the response to the response, three Instagram stories, a twenty-post thread, possibly a podcast by Thursday—all to demonstrate that we absolutely, categorically, unquestionably do not care. I’m starting to think we may have slightly misunderstood what “not caring” looks like.

Maybe I’m getting old. Actually, statistically speaking, that theory is becoming increasingly difficult to challenge. But the older I get, the less interested I am in giving strangers that much control over my mood. If someone criticises something I’ve written intelligently, fine. I might even learn something. If someone disagrees with me, wonderful. Adults are allowed to do that. Rumour has it civilisation has survived several disagreements already. If someone is simply being an asshole, there is an astonishingly sophisticated technique I’ve developed over the years: I keep scrolling. Revolutionary, I know.

Sometimes I’ll answer if there’s something genuinely funny to say. Sarcasm is one of the few unhealthy habits I have absolutely no intention of giving up. But spending half my evening furious because someone with an anime profile picture and seventeen followers called me stupid? No. They don’t get that much of my life.
And perhaps that’s the part social media has made strangely difficult. We’ve started treating every opinion directed at us as though it requires a response. It doesn’t. Not every accusation requires a defence. Not every insult deserves retaliation. Not every stranger deserves access to your emotions simply because they found the comment button. There’s a difference between standing up for yourself and allowing someone else to decide what you’ll be thinking about for the next six hours.
I deal with enough conflict and complicated personalities professionally. Maybe that’s partly why I have less appetite for volunteering for additional shifts on the internet. Or maybe I’m simply becoming that woman who looks at the world over her glasses and mutters, “For God’s sake, people…” Honestly, both explanations are plausible. 😏
Anyway, that was today’s completely unnecessary philosophical detour brought to you by my inability to work properly because someone signed a piece of paper allowing me to go home. Two weeks in Wyoming. I can almost smell the air already. Now I’m going to close TikTok, behave like a responsible adult and get some work done—immediately after checking how many days are left until my flight. Obviously.

— Norian Vayle

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

Apparently, there are two very effective ways to make me disappear from the internet.

Give me responsibility I wasn’t expecting…
or leave me alone with my manuscript for five minutes.
This weekend, I managed both. 😏
Friday meant BJJ, of course. I’ve mentioned before that Friday training is almost sacred to me. It’s one of those rare places where I walk through the door and, for a couple of hours, I don’t have to be responsible for much beyond breathing, thinking and preferably not allowing someone to choke me unconscious.
A beautifully simple arrangement.
Before training, though, my coach pulled me aside.
Remember the group I ended up helping with last time?
Apparently one of the younger guys had asked whether I could take them again.
And my coach, being the wonderfully considerate human being he is, had apparently taken this innocent question and developed plans.
“Would you take the Friday group?”
I think I stared at him for a few seconds longer than socially necessary.
Not because I hated the idea.
Quite the opposite, actually.I just wasn’t expecting how much I liked hearing it.
The strange thing is, I spend enough of my professional life in a leadership position already. BJJ has always been one of the places where I rather enjoy not being the person who has to organise, decide, supervise or know what happens next.
I come there to train.
To switch that part of my brain off.
Apparently that part of my brain did not receive the memo.
My coach must have seen the hesitation on my face because he immediately said, “You don’t have to. I’m asking because I think you can do it.”
Which, unfortunately, is exactly the kind of sentence that works on me.
So I said yes.
I made notes beforehand. Thought through what I wanted to cover. Then the group arrived and I took them through the session.
And somewhere between explaining a technique for the second time, correcting details, watching someone finally understand what I was trying to show them, and answering questions…
I realised I was enjoying the hell out of it.
Afterwards my coach and I talked for a while. He said he’d been watching my progress, not only technically, but in how I communicate and handle people on the mats.
He knows what I do professionally, although we rarely talk about work.
Then he smiled and said something along the lines of:
“You spend all week leading people and come here to escape it. Maybe you should consider the possibility that the problem is that you’re actually good at it.”
I hate when people make reasonable observations about me.
Very inconsiderate. 😏
So that was Friday.
Then came Saturday.
I had absolutely no intention of spending the day writing.
None.
I was only going to look through a few notes.
Every writer already knows where this is going.
I opened the manuscript.
Fixed one thing. Read another passage.Changed a sentence.That reminded me of something. So I wrote a little scene.
The little scene informed me that it was not, in fact, little.
Then one of my characters apparently discovered that I had plans for them and immediately filed an objection.
Another character agreed.
A third one turned up uninvited.
At that point I was no longer writing.
I was mediating a workplace dispute in a world that doesn’t exist.
Business as usual.
At some point around one in the afternoon I realised I was hungry.
Then I looked outside.
It was dark.
This seemed unnecessarily dramatic.
I checked the time.
Apparently six hours had passed.Six.
I genuinely hadn’t noticed.
By then I had no interest in cooking, shopping or demonstrating any of the other qualities normally associated with a functioning adult.
So I ordered pizza.Healthy?No.Delicious?Yes.
Did I regret it?
I’m an author, not a liar.
And that basically became my weekend.
Write.Edit.Rewrite.Decide it’s better. Read it again.Decide I’ve ruined everything.
Fix it. Love it.
Change three more sentences for absolutely no defensible reason.
Repeat until Sunday mysteriously disappears.
And I loved every minute of it.
There’s a point sometimes when my brain seems to switch completely into writing mode and the outside world becomes strangely quiet.
No scrolling. bNo checking what everyone else is doing. No feeling that I should be somewhere else.Just the story.
This weekend I wrote two or three scenes that were particularly heavy emotionally.
And there’s something slightly ridiculous about sitting alone in front of a laptop, writing something that YOU invented, fully knowing what is going to happen because YOU are literally the person making it happen…
and then having to stop because your own eyes are filling with tears.
Ma’am.
You wrote this.
You can change it.
Apparently that information is irrelevant. 😂
But I think that’s also how I know when a scene is where I wanted it to be.
If I can still feel it after living with these characters for this long, hopefully someone meeting them on the page will feel something too.
And actually, there was one more reason I was in an unusually good mood today.
A certain piece of paperwork I’ve been waiting for finally came back signed.
I’ll leave the details exactly where they belong: buried safely inside the kind of administrative machinery that seems to require three signatures, several mysterious desks and at least one person whose entire purpose is apparently to say, “Not my department.” 😏
The important part is this:
Two and a half weeks. Approved.
Which means I’m finally going home to Wyoming for a while.
And I honestly can’t explain how much I’ve missed it.
Not travelling somewhere new.
Not another little escape.
Home.
The familiar roads. The ridiculous amount of open space. The mountains. The air. The places where I don’t need GPS because some part of me still remembers every turn.
I love Europe, and there are very good reasons I’m here.
But sometimes you don’t realise how badly you need home until someone finally signs the piece of paper that allows you to go back to it.
So yes…
That definitely improved my Monday. Considerably. 😊
Now I only have one problem left:
trying not to mentally pack my suitcase two and a half weeks before I actually need to.
I make no promises.
So yes, I’ve been a little quiet here.
Not because I disappeared.
Friday, I somehow acquired a BJJ group.
Saturday and Sunday, my fictional people acquired custody of me.
And today, apparently, I acquired permission to go home.
That feels like a fairly productive few days for someone who technically wasn’t doing very much online.
Now I’m trying very hard to behave like a normal member of society again while part of my brain is already whispering:
“…we could just open the manuscript for five minutes.”
Absolutely not.
I know how this scam works now.

Probably.

— Norian Vayle

[outframe @OUTFRAME1]

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[outframe @OUTFRAME1]

I don’t post here three times a day.

Apparently, in 2026, that can occasionally create the impression that if a brand isn’t constantly shouting, it must not be doing anything.

We are. We’re just usually busy making things instead. 😏

I get a lot of messages saying you love the designs. I get some saying you absolutely don’t.
Good.
Honestly, I’d be slightly worried if everyone liked OUTFRAME.
Because this brand was never supposed to be beige wallpaper for the internet.
Behind the scenes, I’m constantly sketching, testing ideas, throwing bad ones away, changing graphics, questioning perfectly good designs at ridiculous hours, and trying to create pieces I would actually want to see someone wearing.
Not another logo on a shirt.
Not another design manufactured to offend absolutely nobody.
Something with a personality.
Because one thing I keep noticing is how careful people have become about showing what they really think.
We edit ourselves.
We soften everything.
We choose the safe sentence, the safe opinion, the safe version of ourselves.
OUTFRAME was built for pretty much the opposite reason.
Some thoughts are funny.
Some are uncomfortable.
Some are sarcastic.
Some will make one person laugh and another person roll their eyes.
That’s fine.
You don’t have to agree with every design.
You don’t even have to like every collection.
But if something makes you stop for a second and think, “Yeah. I’ve thought that too…”
then it probably belongs here.
So no, I haven’t disappeared.
I’m just somewhere behind the screen creating the next thing you’ll either want on a shirt…
or want to argue with.
Frankly, both mean I did my job.

OUTFRAME
Don’t wear the safe version of yourself.

[Norian Vayle @Norianvayle]

I’ve been thinking about something lately.

I don’t think we’ve simply become worse at communicating.
I think we’ve started consuming people the same way we consume content.
And that might be considerably worse.
Think about how we use our phones.
Three seconds.
Interesting?
Stay.Not interesting?
Swipe.Too slow?Swipe.Too complicated?Swipe.Seen something similar before?Swipe.
Made you uncomfortable for half a second?
Absolutely unacceptable.
Swipe.And then, after spending hours teaching our brains that absolutely everything must justify our attention immediately, we put the phone down and somehow expect ourselves to become patient human beings again.
That would be a fascinating neurological party trick.
I’m not entirely convinced we’re very good at it.
Because lately I notice the same rhythm outside the screen.
We meet someone.
And almost immediately, consciously or not, we start asking:Are they interesting enough?
Attractive enough?
Funny enough?
Successful enough?
Do they reply quickly enough?
Did they say exactly the right thing?
Did the first conversation give me butterflies, intellectual stimulation, emotional security and preferably free shipping?
No?Next.We used to call getting to know someone a process.
Now sometimes it feels suspiciously like browsing a catalogue.
And I’m not standing outside this pointing an accusing finger at everyone else.
I own a smartphone too.
My attention span occasionally has the structural integrity of wet cardboard.
I have opened my phone to answer one message and twenty minutes later found myself watching a woman in Korea reorganise a refrigerator I do not own.
I have no defence for this. 😏
But there’s something that bothers me about what happens when that behaviour stops being about videos and starts becoming about people.
Because people rarely reveal the best parts of themselves in the first three seconds.
Sometimes not in the first three conversations.
Interesting people can be awkward.
Kind people can have terrible days.
Intelligent people occasionally say stupid things.
Confident people can become insecure.
Someone who seems ordinary at first can become extraordinary once you understand what shaped them.
But understanding requires something our feeds have slowly trained us to hate:
time.And worse…attention.Real attention.
The kind where you aren’t simultaneously waiting for something more entertaining to happen.
Maybe that’s why silence has become uncomfortable too.
Try sitting somewhere without touching your phone.
No music.
No scrolling. No notifications.Nothing.Just you and your thoughts.
After approximately eleven seconds, my own brain usually begins demanding legal representation. 😄
But stay there long enough and something interesting happens.Your mind slows down.
You start noticing things again.
You think instead of reacting.
And perhaps that is part of what we are losing.
Not intelligence.
Not empathy.
Not even necessarily kindness.
Depth.The ability to remain with something long enough for it to become meaningful.
A book that needs fifty pages before it opens up.
A conversation that doesn’t immediately sparkle.
A person who takes time to trust you.
An idea that cannot be explained in fifteen seconds with subtitles and dramatic music.
Some things are simply slow.
Friendship is slow. Trust is slow. Love is painfully slow.
Understanding another human being might be one of the slowest things we ever do.
And perhaps that’s precisely why it matters.
Because if we train ourselves to leave the moment something stops stimulating us, eventually we don’t just become impatient with content.
We become impatient with people.
Then with relationships.Then with ourselves.
And suddenly an ordinary quiet life begins to feel like something is wrong simply because nothing is happening every three seconds.
That thought bothers me more than I expected.
Maybe boredom isn’t always something we need to escape.
Maybe sometimes it’s simply the doorway we keep swiping past.
Anyway.
That’s enough philosophy from a woman who has probably checked her phone twice while writing a post about checking our phones too much.
I never claimed consistency.
Only self-awareness. 😏

— Norian Vayle