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Honest motherhood, marriage & relationships journey + Emotional truths no one says out loud

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@jaytcoza toddler phase

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@LewisHowes Aren't all of these related? More money = More time = More peace

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@Psychology_Call They say God is with you but I’m not so sure anymore

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For women who enjoy or enjoyed motherhood what specific aspects of becoming a new mother in first 2-3 years did you find desirable?

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@marconoiz Complain

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There is a special place in hell for people who ask a sleep-deprived new mother, “So… are you enjoying motherhood?”

I’m surviving it. Ask me again in a year.

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Some people travel the world with little kids. Right now, even leaving the house feels heavy.
Maybe one day I’ll feel like myself again.

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Diljit is performing in Dallas tomorrow and for the first time in years, I’m not going.
Back when we lived in Austin, we drove 3 hours, booked hotels, did the whole thing just to see him live. I keep telling myself tickets are expensive now, but they were expensive then too

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Truth is, motherhood has changed my relationship with joy.
Now every outing feels weighed down by exhaustion, sleep deprivation, worry, and guilt.
I imagine being at the concert, but I also imagine coming home to another sleepless night, wondering if my baby cried for me

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Life of a tired and wired mother

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@RobinSharma Guilty

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@RobinSharma Reading daily

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But maybe this is exactly what’s shaping me as a Human being, not just a Mother.

Perseverance right now looks like showing up again tomorrow, even when today took everything out of me.

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Lately I’ve been reflecting on The Obstacle Is the Way by @RyanHoliday - the idea that the struggle isn’t in the way, it is the way.
The sleepless nights, the constant giving, the parts of me I’ve had to let go of, it all feels like resistance.

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@RobinSharma This and saint, surfer and the ceo are my all time favorite books!

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@readswithravi Why does my soul feel like home in bookstores

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@LewisHowes It is the hardest thing to do

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Motherhood feels like a series of quiet deaths.
The person I was before disappeared in pieces.
Through sleepless nights, aching exhaustion, and all the highs and lows, another person was shaped.

Stronger. Steadier. Unfamiliar

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@aestheticsguyy

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@LewisHowes Taking a walk outside with my child