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Autonomous and sovereign. Artist/musician/poet/lover.

Retired from findom, not a sub. I'm a God who worships, kneels for women.

Can't be owned.

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@vixenpixel_ @chaoticmoongirl And I should have stated it up front that I agree with you, most of it is performative.

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@vixenpixel_ @chaoticmoongirl I said many, and I wasn't saying that you were wrong, just voicing an addendum to your statement, indicating that in my experience there are a lot of mean girls that aren't just performative. It's possible for both the opinions to be valid

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@MattThomas2021 @maddenifico @brucehayes Putin has won without ever firing a shot toward America

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@vixenpixel_ @chaoticmoongirl As somebody who writes unapologetically about successes and failures in this community, I can tell you that many of the mean girls are real, not performative. They come over from tiktok, and think because they are young and pretty that they deserve the world

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being a big Jimi fan, i resonate with this

[violet✧*｡ @violettweets_]

shades of purple.

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There I flew
atop the breeze
the wind blowing through my hair,
the dove pumping its wings to keep me afloat.

I was lost
Not able to find my way
Not sure what I had lost
But knowing it was missing, just the same.

The ethereal purple mist shifted,
A white light appearing, guiding me
In the distance i saw someone
Intrinsically I knew.

The voodoo chile within me
Guided me gently toward the light
Flooded me with bliss
Healed me from the depths of sorrow.

I reached down and offered my hand
That you may join me in my quest
of light, love, happiness
as we soared toward eternity.

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@JuneTheDomme also, don't you do blackmail and other CNC activities? Because I would think there you might experience quandary between those CNC kinks and the therapy oath and experience. (Not judging because you seem like an incredibly sweet and genuine person)

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dear findom,

As someone with ASD/BPD/BP, i have been in therapy for many years. I've also experimented with dommes who were therapists or action in a therapeutic capacity.

I wanted to share my experiences.

My recommendation, DON'T DO IT. But here are some details. I don't kiss and tell so please don't ask me who they were.

T1 was an content provider on IWC and other platforms doing findom videos. I told her about my findom addiction and she told me her undergrad was psychology.We ended up doing 4 or 5 paid phone sessions and i felt that her experience lent a POV that many traditional therapists don't have.
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ 5 stars

T2 was a domme on twitter who mentioned in some postings that she was an LPC. We did 2 online sessions. She wouldn't charge me because it was an ethics violation. The sessions were very good but ended too soon. She felt uncomfortable with it which was understandable.
⭐⭐⭐⭐ 4 stars

T3 was a domme on twitter working on her psychology degree. She and I did 3 or 4 phone sessions. I really enjoyed the work but she wasn't really a therapist. I ended up helping her pay for meds and paid for an urgent care visit for her child. We had a falling out after a humiliation session that went bad. And she ended up disclosing much of the private information we had discussed during the sessions. She posted it on twitter.
0️⃣stars

T4 had an undergrad in psyche, working on her masters a related study. We actually fell in love and considered being together full time. The relationship got very complicated because there were still findom desires mixed in with her helping me, which in the end became the downfall of both the therapy as well as the relationship. The therapy and evaluations became cloudy because of our relationship as well as findom.
⭐⭐🌓 2.5 stars

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@JuneTheDomme depends on whether you use it for good or evil. For a while I was doing hypno sessions with dommes who actually trained in it. To this day, I think they changed my sexuality permanently.

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@hello_paykitty i hope you're joking! I'm going to write something on my TL in a few minutes about having a findomme who was a therapist.

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@heslavenderhaze show some of your art?

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Dear findom,

How many artists/writers/musicians are on my TL?

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extremely dysregulated today.

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Visiting a farm. Hmmmm.

On a serious note, makes me sad that I eat pork. They are so cute. One weighed about 700lb!

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we're all human and all have frailties. It may occasionally happen but if it happens over and over it's on me for staying in the dynamic. And i'm not blaming the domme. But clearly, the two of us together don't work in terms of protecting me. I'm actually writing a song about this, lol

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dear findom,

Help me understand. Explain this to me like I'm stupid.

You say you are an ethical, caring, mommy-domme. But your besties are unethical, blackmailing, homewrecking, financial ruining dommes.

How do we rationalize this? I'm not talking about some random domme on your feed. I'm talking about your literal besties.

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@SirSimp I agree but I think soft/mommy dommes do have good intentions. But like subs, they can get into domme space and often, bad things can happen.

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Dear findom,

i'll often beg to have the limit raised when i'm in sub-space. I don't mind if it happens infrequently and is within reason.

But when it happens shortly thereafter when I've already hit my monthly budget and this repeats?

Absolutely, unequivocally my fault.

If it happens in a new dynamic, i have a wider latitude in my judgement. But if it's someone who knows me well, knows of my emotional struggles, history of crashes, my financial situation, it's untenable.

But eventually I will wake up and exorcise my demons --and her-- from my life.

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@Stacie243546 to be fair, if it happens in a new dynamic, i have a wider latitude in my judgement. But if it's someone who knows me well, knows of my emotional struggles, history of crashes, my financial situation, it's untenable.

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Dear findom,

A couple thoughts on ethical play. I am used to giving dommes a million chances. If something happens and the session goes way over budget, it's my fault. If I tell a domme i have a $300 budget / month but end up sending her thousands, it's completely my fault. But in therapy, we discussed me being 100% responsible for budgets. I accept that. Additionally, I am working on stepping away from a domme if the budget is blown and/or if she abuses me emotionally and puts me in unsafe situations for my ASD/BPD/BP.

One of my issues is that I give people repeated chances. I always think that if we discuss it (again), behaviors will change. But they rarely do.

So --yes it's my responsibility-- but it doesn't mean I will continue to play with a domme if it happens.

And it also doesn't mean that I don't hold dommes emotionally accountable when budgets go awry repeatedly.