Astrid Bordeaux

If you don't know where you are going any road can take you there. (RP21/NSFW/Fake) #BitterSweet #WildOnes

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

• Astrid Bordeaux •

“Everyone thinks of them in terms of poisoned apples and glass coffins, and forgets that they represent girls who walked into dark forests and remade them into their own reflections.”

- One year sober
- Sponsor for addicts

#WildOnes #BitterSweet

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms and goes forward. His future is looking so bright. I hope he sees that too.]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms say. It’s been a crazy ride but I don’t regret it. I just know I’m better in spite of everything I’ve gone through.

[Joel has spent so much time dwelling on his past. Worried about people judging him for his actions. For me it doesn’t matter. It only matters how he takes that —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms Also, it’s kind of my job to mentor and help you. I’m glad that it helped though. It means I might actually have found my calling.

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms [Glancing down at the book in my lap, I flip it over to reveal the title.]

It’s call ‘She Rides Shotgun’. It’s kind of action packed but a short read. I’ll probably have it finished in a day.

[I smile back at Joel, my eyes lingering on his for far longer than they should.] —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms him and kick off my shoes, pulling my legs up on the sofa beneath me.]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms [I show Joel over to the cozy little corner of the bookstore where I hide, drink my coffee, and read a good book. We take a seat on the plush couch and get comfortable.]

So how are things going? I feel like we haven’t had time to chat as often as we used to.

[I smile over at —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms the end of the week. Our trips off campus have gone really well too.

Today I’m taking him for coffee and maybe the bookstore. It’s one of the many places I love to go and get away.]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms as more of a coping mechanism. I was the same. We are emotional abusers. I feel like we could become really close friends even outside of the rehab center. So when I find out that Jim Joel’s official sponsor I’m pretty excited. He’s making great progress and should be out by —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms something important or special. If I leave it here Joel will more than likely stare at it and just keep beating himself up on the ‘what if’s’. It’s important for him to focus on the future and not the past.]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms [Shooting him a wink before standing up and putting the gift from Penny back in the box it came in.]

And I’ll take this and keep it safe for if or when you want it back. I think it would be better for your mental health.

[I know what it’s like to have trinkets that signify —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms living, or I didn’t feel it necessary to contact them. That was more for me than for them.

[Pointing to the gift with a shake of my head.]

Want me to take it away with me? I don’t see that benefiting your recovering.

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms [Shrugging my shoulders with a light chuckle.]

Drugs do crazy things to us. One thing that helped me move forward was writing letters to the people I hurt. It sounds crazy but believe me, it works. I sent a few of them but others went unsent because the person is no longer —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms up with someone for your own benefit. I’m sorry. I was under the assumption that she was the one that ended things.

[Letting out a long sigh because seeing Joel in pain is really difficult for me. I don’t even know why. I’ve done this before with others and it didn’t bother me]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms Joel… I’m sorry for your loss.

[I reach over and pat his knee, letting it linger there for a moment.]

You can’t blame yourself for what happened. It obviously wasn’t a planned pregnancy. Admitting you aren’t ready to be a father isn’t an awful thing. Neither is breaking —

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms truly evil people in this world. I have a feeling your ex Penny knows that fact about you as well.

[Tapping the envelope on the desk with my index finger. I’m not sure what it says but it’s affected him.]

[Astrid Bordeaux @NumbLittleMess]

@WalkIntoMyArms haven’t found the body. [I whisper that last part as I cover my mouth with my hand and only mouth it in his direction.]

Look, you obviously show some sort of remorse for your actions. I admire that. It’s the people that do bad shit but don’t feel awful for it…. Those are the —