Nyx Sinclair

Things I want to say but can't. A dump site of my endured emotions. I am drowning in a lot of emotions every day.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I feel so hopeless. Being in a mental crisis and dire need of help yet not wanting to bother other people with your problems.
I'm having headaches and I feel nauseous.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

Death just sounds so appealing right now cause I want to escape from all of it and this way I don't have to explain why I feel this way and no one could criticize why I feel this way.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I'm just tired at this point.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

Every time someone opens my bedroom door I always get jumpy and my heart beats so fast it feels like someone has caught me doing something wrong when in reality I'm just doing my own thing.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I tried to get myself out of this situation early on but I was gaslighted into staying. Now I'm feeling all miserable.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I feel guilty for everything. I feel like shit yet why don't I do something about it. Why don't I have the energy to fix myself?

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

They just don't understand.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I want to get away from here and go on a journey to finding myself.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

Everything is going to be fine.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

People my age around me are struggling and working hard on their dreams. Fighting!!! We will all eventually get there.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I don't mind the struggle it's all part of the process. I just wish they would trust me and have patience so that I can achieve my dreams and plans at my path and pace.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I hate nepotism. I don't want to be a part of it. I'm thankful for the sentiment and help but I want to be able to accomplish something that I worked hard on. I want to feel the satisfaction of success through my hard work, effort, and determination.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I feel like I don't deserve my life.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I feel like a loser.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

I'm so jumpy. I have so many triggers. Certain noises. Certain names. Certain topics. My heart would first feel like it's about to jump out then it would feel like it's being crushed.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

2/2 I just need time and space. Most importantly I need my family's understanding, patience, and trust that I can achieve my dreams and plans on my path.
I know that everybody wants what's best for me but this is all I ask for. I have never asked for anything.

[Nyx Sinclair @NyxSinclair]

1/2 I have plans and dreams of my own, they may not be as solid and as secure as what my family offered but mine is much more tempting for me.
Why? Because it is where I see myself that I am the happiest.

[Halle @HalleBailey]

anyone else been emotional af 🥹

[⋆ @lowkeyalbert]

Don’t overshare. Everyone is not your friend.

[feelings @thesadpost]

Hide your sadness, no one cares.