gazing to his.
βI think weβve both saved one another at different timesβ¦I think weβd be foolish to both deny thereβs something else underneath the many complex layers,β she lets out a quiet chuckle, her hand slowly dropping from his cheek.
She sends a softened grin over to him now, biting her cheek to keep from grinning wider.
βIβm aware youβre not afraidβI donβt think youβre afraid of anyone in this world honestlyββ she says noticing how much closer heβd gotten.
Call it nostalgia, or call it the weakness
he snorts at the mentions of him being jealous, though she had hit the nail right on the head. usually heβd have nothing to fear when it came to the likes of tyler but. . he had the privilege of a relationship with her while he β he was sure that they had sex
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that drew her toward him tooβshe couldnβt stop herself.
βI donβt really know either, we play this little game with one another and I thinkββ she pauses, her hand coming up to cup his cheek for a moment.
β I think under different circumstancesββ she trails off, her eyes
She scoffs at the mention of one of her exesβshooting a (semi) playful glare his way.
βWe are friends nowβI donβt think heβd necessarily come running..β she turns to face him, βBut it is cute when youβre jealous,β she teases back.
βLook weβslept together soβ¦it would be stupid
he couldnβt help the eye roll at her rebuttal, knowing that was the furthest from the truth.
βso you mean to tell me tyler lockwood wouldnβt come running the moment you called?β
he did notice the rosiness of her cheeks, a small smile starting to grow amongst his
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to say you mean nothing to me,β she ignores her heart fluttering.
βI think weβve been through way too much together for you to believe that you mean nothing to me,β she admits, her tone softening as she can feel the gravitational pull they always seem to have toward one another.
She furrows her brows a moment with a quiet huffβ
βI donβt have /that/ many suitors,β she argued back trying to avoid his intense gaze. If she looked up at him heβd see the pink in her cheeks, a dead giveaway of just how much she hadnβt thought of him as
he listened to each and every word, hung on every syllable. he knew that he didnβt deserve her kindness, even now but β
he scowled at the mention of him being a βfriendβ huffing as he gave her a pleading look.
βso out of all those suitors, you look at me
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starting to see that having some kind of emotionsβeven if itβs just for a select fewβthat itβs not a bad thing,β she adds.
Sure she was rambling, blame that on the alcohol as well, βTo answer your questionβjust having a drink with friend,β she says quietly.
βI used to feel sorry for you,β she admits, and it was the truth. She pitied that he couldnβt understand how much hurt heβd caused to her friendsβto people she cared about.
βBut I think in the time Iβve met youβwhether you want to admit it or notβ¦I think youβre
he too laughs. but not because he found anything she said humorous. she knew that she was one of the few people he showed affections for. she knew how to play on his emotions and yet. . he couldnβt blame her for it.
βyes, well. .β he begins to pace again, his
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βI . . .dont know if Iβm being completely truthfulβI donβt know if I can stop caring. Even for youββ she admits, albeit the alcohol making her a bit more open anyways.
βMaybe something pulls us back to one another,β she laughs shaking her head.
She truthfully didnβt have a straight answer for him. It wasnβt like she could even explain it herself.
Knowing something could be bad for you yet never fully leaving it, it was a cycle, a roller coaster ride and for some reasonβshe couldnβt get off of it.
his eyes meet hers and again, itβs as if the rage and anger is washed away β like it never existed.
he inhales deeply before he steps out of her reach. he was scared of people getting to close to understand the real him. that he was so much more complicated than
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βIf that were the case, we wouldnβt have a half empty bottle of whiskey in our handsβnow do you want to talk about it and try to feel better?β She says in a much more tranquil tone, eyes fixated up at his own.
She can feel the softened tension between the two of them. No, she hasnβt always agreed with him, nor his decisions.
But something always drew her back, made her stop and really want to know the man behind the facade he played to the masses.
any other wouldβve had their hand torn clean off but β heβd always held a certain softness for the blonde. even if it wasnβt always reciprocated by her.
but he does settle, shoulders dropping ever so slightly.
β. . thereβs nothing to speak about.β