ObsidianNovalite♡

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[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

꒰ ObsidianNovalite ꒱

she/her ‧₊˚ 28 ₊˚⊹꒷ pan / demi
poly +! ⊹ ˚. bottom+sub
‧₊˚ traveling ~ gaming₊˚
‧₊˚ cosplaying ₊ puppy˚⊹
⭑｡ 𓂃 ༘ *capricorn
  . ♡ + rt to be mutuals <33

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

Where are you.
The entire time I've known of your existence you have been on centerlink. So I know you have nothing to do, nobody to see. And here your love of 30 years lays with blood covered knuckles and temples. The emergency contact is you, yet, where are you? Drinking again?

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She looks like mum did.
I am so filled with rage and nowhere for it to go.
I had my surgery two hours ago and I am here. Where is everyone.

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@MaverickOwlVA This is so kind

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Insulin resistance + ED = fat deposit. I will always be the fat girl.
No matter how much food i skip.

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I thought exposure therapy would work.
I am still terrified of being put under each month.

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"My biggest fear has to be like needles in the eyes or like all my teeth falling out for sure!"

It's not that bad when the pain stops.
"What?"
What.

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

Born late enough to see my mother and sister die but not to have a sister who loves me

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

I feel so fat here.. such a dumb thing to be upset about, especially with all my health issues..

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Got told I look 37 by a human heffalump..
Told her I don't care about a side pieces opinion and she left 🫡
Oh no, anyway..

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

Skipping meals again? Yeah I need to lose 23kgs

What tips do you have?

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

Something I love about myself pt1
If I want something I always end up getting it, as an orphan, I had to give myself everything day 1. So now I'm slightly delusional 🫡 I want it? I'll get it, thing is, I always do.

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I want to work but I can't see screens anymore, I'm using voice to text now.
Clock is ticking now

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I had a nightmare about the flight to Melbourne after being diagnosed, the pain was so severe but if I stayed in that hospital I would have taken my life, my kidney wouldn't allow pain relief so I just sat there in so much pain. Realising the IV was giving me pain meds was weird

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Felt cute, might steal your left socks later i dunno 😏

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I sometimes think about who would mourn me after I die.
Like a guilt trip to stay alive

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If I'm lucky, this is half way through my life.
I hope I get to do more before the end

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I have a deep seeded fear that if I don't see it now in Japan then I won't see it again, they will be doing surgery on my eyes when I get home, every month for the foreseeable future and it doesn't settle better from here.
I want to see so much more ¹

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Being screamed at for other peoples laziness/sloppy behaviour wasn't on my bingo list for before my Japan trip.
It's not my fault they don't clean up after themselves. Consider shutting the fuck up about it to me? Threatening to kill yourself over dishes? Get help.

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I hope you heal from things you don't talk about this Christmas 🖤

[ObsidianNovalite♡ @ObsidianNovalit]

Jaw has started trembling internally randomly, I think stress? Ig?
These stars i see are nice sometimes.
I miss my good eye being the good one. Glasses are useless now.

Gonna ignore all my symptoms in Japan and live for once. Not survive