Okay so... Here is the run down of what has happened in my life and what caused me to not be here. First... I got a full time job... But then caught COVID... And I just didn't want to be around anyone or anything. Second... I... Lost my muse for Mark.. I honestly don't +++
know if I will get him back. Third... I just don't know if I fit into doing roleplay anymore and even have the time to do so. Please... Understand. I'm so sorry to everyone and I promise that I'll try to do my best... To get this muse back soon as possible. Just give me time.
I've had thoughts about just... Disappearing from real life and wondering if anyone would care. Everyone has been so much better without me... So who am I to stop that happiness?
I've just... Been hating who I am.
How I'm not pretty enough for anyone.
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How I'm not a good daughter.
How I'm not a good friend.
How I just... A shell of who I used to be.
Will I roleplay ever again?
Maybe?
Right now... My Mark muse needs a break and to come back stronger than before.
As for my other muses?
That's up in the air.
// slight trigger warning... Mentions of depression and thoughts. Never done this so... Don't yell at me.
I'm gonna be honest... I've not felt any of my muses lately... For awhile.
I've been mentally unwell and just... Tired of everything.
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// I haven't been around a lot. Why? My Trigeminal Neuralgia has been acting up so badly... I can't move my neck to the right... My right side of my face is numb. Its been hard... All I want is sleep and I can't take it.
Plus I feel like I've over stayed my welcome as Mark tbh.