『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ

❝Wʜᴀᴛ ɪғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴇɴᴅs?❞

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

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    ❝Iᴛ ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ϙᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴏғ
   ᴏɴᴇ’s ᴄᴏɴᴠɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴs ᴛʜᴀᴛ
     ᴅᴇᴛᴇʀᴍɪɴᴇs sᴜᴄᴄᴇss,
       ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴜᴍʙᴇʀ ᴏғ
            ғᴏʟʟᴏᴡᴇʀs.❞

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  Eᴅɪᴛ ʙʏ : ᴄᴇʟᴇsᴛɪᴀʟᴜᴘɪɴ

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana - "Even if I've killed someone..?"

Or worse, turned someone. The fear in his voice, shown in his eyes. Was crystal clear.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

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|: The Full Moon Aftermath :|

OPEN STARTER
(Marauders era only)

Possible triggers include;

•Distant thoughts.
•Eating / Injury.
•Depressing thoughts.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "You don't understand...if I've hurt someone, there's now always going to be a chance that I will again..."

He spent years terrified he'd hurt one of the guys during the full moon, now he has possibly hurt someone? All that fear has returned. -

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana - covered in blood Luci. I have no idea what I could've or have done. I could've killed someone."

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "If I've hurt someone Luci, I can't be around them. I can't look the people who think highly of me, in any sense in the eye...not knowing what I've done."

He shakes his head, if he has truly harmed a human, killed a person, then he will never forgive himself.

"I woke up, -

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana - "What if I did hurt someone, not something..but someone. I wouldn't be safe to be around. I would be a monster."

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "Luci."

He lifted his gaze to face her, he took a deep breath to steady himself a little. Stay strong.

"What if there's nothing you can do? This isn't an easy thing to fix or accept...I never wanted to be this.."

He shakes his head, looking down at his hands briefly. -

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

He's in the library,
should anyone need him.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana - would ever bounce back.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana -guys wanting to help? I don't know if you can...if there's anything that will help..."

In the past he would bounce back after a day or to, realize he's being silly about worrying, usually because the guys know what happened.

This was different, he wasn't sure if he -

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

"...Tell me about your day?" He'd ask, lifting his gaze, a weak smile.

If he got lost in thought well, he needs to get out of his head a while.
He may even open up as to why, if asked. She is family after all. He knows she won't judge him.

[— 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬. 𝐏𝐚𝐝𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐭. @FIDCANIS]

⠀⠀⠀ 𝐅𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝
𝐓𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧.
𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐧, 𝐢𝐭'𝐬
𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐞
𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐬𝐭
𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana - "Never asked for it no...but I should've been able to control it."

He mumbled, looking down again.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "They've always known I feel like that..."

They spent years trying to get him to say he wasn't a monster, distracted him with pranks or enjoyable full moons. Despite the transformations. But nothing could change what he was.-

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

He was quiet for a while before lifting his gaze. A shake of his head.

"No...I don't think being alone is...a good idea right now."

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

He shook his head, he just needed to pull himself together, he kept telling himself that, but...he couldn't.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana -yet it'd be true if he'd harmed someone.

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "But I couldn't forgive myself..."

It was barely a whisper, his gaze dropping, a deep breath. He was trying to keep it together.

"But I wouldn't be, I'd be..exactly what people expect me to be...a monster."

The word the guys had constantly told him not to use towards himself,-

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

@malfoy_luciana "And what if he find someone...what if I--if I did hurt someone..."

The thought crossed his mind, his heart felt as though it was stuck in his throat, if he'd killed someone, he'd never forgive himself, ever.

"If I've hurt someone, I can't...I won't forgive myself..."

[『 Rᴇᴍᴜs 』 Lᴜᴘɪɴ @OfLoyalLycan]

"...I don't think I am.." he looks over to her, recent events have him a little shaken.