ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ

14 y/o in the UK who genuinely just wants to delete

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

I don't know where to go from here. I'm so useless, I can't even die. My neck hurts, man

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

@sku11ch33se ate

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

I feel it.
I feel it every second of every day.
I feel those shades of black sticking to me and weighing me down
And hope that maybe one day, even if for only a moment,

I will feel colour.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

I feel it. I feel it in my chest,
Hollowing out a cavity where I'm certain a heart should be,
Leaving nothing in its wake but a feeling I can only describe
In a colour. Black isn't a colour, it's a shade,
And there must be a thousand shades of black inside me

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

I feel it in my eyes,
Sepulchral, jet liquid drowning my vision and
Accompanying that cry of pain, of desperation,
Streaming down my empty cheeks to the corners of my lips
And I can taste how salty that ink is.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

Me after finding out yet again I'm too tall to hang myself

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

@sku11ch33se Thank you sm!!

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

The sky is so clear tonight, I gaze up
And there’s no clouds. But I can’t see
I can’t see the stars either. No
My stars are nowhere to be found.
So I squint, the blackness only melting
Into more ebony and more obsidian
Come back.
Come back, stars
I want you to come back.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

And without the light of stars I am confused
And in the dark.
Suddenly clouds begin to appear
Until I realise there are no clouds in the clear sky tonight
Only the tears pricking my eyes
And no stars.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

It hurts
I yearn to see the stars again
Maybe even the moon
But I never really see the moon anyway
And it’s as far away a dream as Oz.
There is no logic left
For logic, you need to see, you need light

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

Somebody should shoot me in the head in my sleep

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

Living is a curse I won't forgive mg parents for inflicting upon me

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

@sku11ch33se Thanks man, means a lot

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

Lowkey half attempted today, didn't necessarily do it to die but I took 2 paracetamol, way too many vitamin supplements and some vodka I found. Nothing happened duh. Oh well. I don't think I'll ever be able to see light again, my hope's extinguished.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

@sku11ch33se I appreciate the concern, sorry for worrying you. I dunno man, it's getting really bad nowadays. I'm trying my best

[Democrats Deliver @DemzDeliver]

🚨 Zohran Mamdani has banned ICE from entering NYC property.

[ᵀᵒᵐᵘʳᵃ ˢʰⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ @OneAndOnlyAspen]

Wake up

Want to die

Cry