what you need to understand about recommending a show to me is that no matter how much we both know I'll like it, I can't watch it until the Neurodivergence Department in my brain approves it. I don't know when that will be, and I don't have any more control over it than you do.
THEY DIAGNOSED ME WITH ADHD AT 36 AND I CRIED IN THE PARKING LOT, NOT FROM RELIEF. I WAS MOURNING EVERY TEACHER WHO CALLED ME SMART BUT LAZY WHILE I WAS DROWNING IN PLAIN SIGHT.
Hiding your gifts and mourning your invisibility is a painful cycle.
But you hide the gift because somewhere you learned it wasn't safe to be seen. Then you grieve not being seen.
I fell in love with this scripture:
“There will come a time when your tears will fall, not because of your troubles, but because God has answered your prayers.”
— 𝖧𝖠𝖡𝖠𝖪𝖪𝖴𝖪 𝟤:𝟥
Turns out that "gifted, high-achieving child" who finished assignments in 10 minutes, read entire books under the blanket with a flashlight, and was praised for being mature... was actually just an undiagnosed ADHD girlie operating on pure, unregulated hyperfocus.
One of the sneakiest parts of ADHD for me is demand avoidance. The moment something becomes an obligation, even things I like start feeling impossible.
having ADHD is wild because I will actively avoid a 5-minute task for 3 weeks, let it slowly ruin my life and give me severe daily anxiety, and then when I finally do it I’m just like "oh wow that took literally no time at all"
ADHD has a tighter link to difficulty letting go of objects than OCD does. Not because you are a hoarder. Because your brain uses objects as memory anchors. Getting rid of the thing feels like getting rid of something you need.