Punched myself hard af in the face yesterday while using gorilla tape cause it ripped on its own as I was unrolling it. And I am almost positive I broke the tip of my nose cause it still hurts so bad 😭
Did insulation today on our house & wore a suit. Everything but my face was covered. Forehead & chin are covered in fiberglass at the end of the day. 🤣💀 I tried my best. 🤷🏽♀️
Grief days are hitting more frequently since holidays are coming up, birthdays, & how short/long of a time it has all been.
Long in terms of seeing/ hearing them.
But short in term of the feeling of loss still being so fresh.
Grief is hard & confusing all in one big mess.
2 Chronicles 7:14
If my people who are called by my name
humble themselves, and pray
and seek my face
and turn from their wicked ways,
then I will hear from heaven
and will forgive their sin
and heal their land.
“He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds.”
Psalms 147:3
“The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.”
Psalms 34:18
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
Romans 8:28
Grief days are hitting more frequently since holidays are coming up, birthdays, & how short/long of a time it has all been.
Long in terms of seeing/ hearing them.
But short in term of the feeling of loss still being so fresh.
Grief is hard & confusing all in one big mess.
Maybe because it's fall & winter is coming which means snow...
Or maybe it's that your birthday will soon be arriving with out you here.
But I have definitely been feeling your absence so much more recently.
Heaven is just too far away. 💔
Just thinking about how much I love watching my man eat dinner that I made him after work.
I now understand why my Dad liked watching us eat whenever he would make dinner. 💀
Today is a grief day & THAT IS OKAY. My heart misses her more than I thought it would.
My person to call when the world was spinning & I couldn't slow it down. I want to call you so bad & I can't. You won't answer. You aren't here. I miss you💔
Spending time with people when you just want to be entirely alone while you process everything going & everything you are feeling is tough. Pretending to be present is even harder.
ADHD and anxiety can be a dangerous combination.
Anxiety gives you the things to worry about, then ADHD gives you the ability to hyperfocus on those exact things, see addressing them as now or never, and adds gasoline to the fire of emotional dysregulation the anxiety started