Can I be real?
Nothing feels worse than someone you enjoyed being around and looking up to, to find out they would misgender you and not view you as a woman on purpose.
I feel like it's just never enough. I can't raise my voice high enough to be seen, I don't act girly enough to follow through expectations. I don't follow female like trends or have feminine like fashion.
I *want* to be seen and heard as a woman, without having to do all that extra stereotype bs that the internet and tv shove in her face. I don't want to *always* have to be pretty or upbeat. I just wanna be me and accepted as me.
and I think what hurts is that even when I try to do these things, to fit in to even maybe feel more comfortable, I get someone pushing me back down, or worse I get dysphoric and stop and break down.
I don't want any pity or anything like that, but I do want my friends and people around me to understand what it's like being me. It's not easy, and it's harder on others who are like me but they are too afraid their voice will get lost in the void.
I'm doing my best and I am enough. But I want others to stop shaming me for trying.