When you reject the trinity, think Jesus and Lucifer are brothers, and think youโre going to be a god if youโre own planet; you reject any semblance of being a Christian.
Outfit for Mass tomorrow ๐๐ป๐ฆ
I also have a new veil. It's blush pink covered in little pink flowers, dedicated to my patron saint, St. Thรฉrรจse of the Child Jesus and Holy Face ๐น๐ผ
Everyday is a reason to thank and praise God... Even tho my health has been failing, I know that I am a sinner worthy of redemption. I place it all in His Hands, and I will always be grateful for the blessings I have received. I could be homeless rn. I could be without insurance and medical care. I could be without anyone to help me... And yet I'm not, and I thank God for it everyday.
So just a quick update: my health is looking to be in free fall.
My life currently boils down to basically just bedrotting and numerous doctor's appointments and tests... I can actually count on one hand how many times I've left the house to do something I actually wanted to do since January. The fatigue and pain are severe, I have almost completely lost track of days and time, the only reason I still have any sense of it is for appointments...
I'm now currently seeing a new PCP, a neurologist, a cardiologist, a psychiatrist, a psychologist, an endocrinologist, etc. and that list is likely only to continue to rise. For the last couple months I've had at least one appointment nearly every week, and so many tests and lab work...
And that brings me to my next point. My most recent lab results point to something extremely concerning. My CBC shows that my immune system is incredibly active, as my WBC, Platelets, and Absolute Neutrophils are all ranking as exceptionally high. Just as well, my Creatinine is high which suggests something potentially wrong with my kidneys, and my ALT (SGPT) is also high, which indicates something potentially wrong with my liver. My triglycerides are also slightly elevated which places me at a higher risk for heart problems or metabolic syndrome. Thankfully those readings aren't super high but it's still worth concern until I know more.
And then comes the big one. My C-Reactive Protein (CRP) is at 45. Forty. Freaking. Five. The normal range is 0-10. FORTY FIVE. This means that I'm experiencing moderate to severe systemic inflammation, which is atypical even with my ME... This means one of two things: acute infection, or autoimmune disease... Some of which include, but are not limited to, Systemic Lupus Erythematosus (SLE), Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA), Vasculitis, Adult-Onset Stills Disease (AOSD), etc. and that's just the most likely ones, and some of them can be life-threatening...
I have an expedited appointment in two weeks to discuss the results with my doctor and potential next steps, and I'm trying really hard not to dwell on it and stay positive, but how can I not?? I'm only 32, and this is really scary...
Please pray for me. ๐ฅบ๐