im a hag, a milf, a bimbo; whatever my wife calls me as long as its not late for dinner.
21 | she/they | no minors please
betrothed hag of @chimerawntwaflz
you know what?? no. fuck you. im not giving up this time. i spent my whole fucking life to be who i am. im not dying over a stupid facist. i have people i love who i need to keep fighting for.
id rather die standing than live kneeling and ill fight for every last fucking breath.
im tired of feeling helplessness, pain, lashing out at everyone around me in malcontent, and continually spiraling down worse and worse
i won't yet let myself go hollow, but if I am to be killed for living, let death be kinder than man.
I wish I didn't neglect my social life during and after high school because I never felt like I'd live long enough for it to matter. Now I'm here at 21 hiding in my room when I'm not working regretting that.
and yeah I have friends over the interwebs but its not the same
starting to realize how much I've missed out on
never got to go to prom
never been to a party
never got to just hang out with friends
I mourn what I never had the chance to experience
and that I never may
and while its never too late to change that, its quite the hole to dig yourself out of once you're that deep. and I feel buried under my years of bad decisions.