Anyone else on EDTWT live between a constant phase of ‘I really want to tell doctors and get help’ and ‘no one ever better find out I wanna live with this forever’ because this might kill me before the starving does
saw a woman on tiktok say 'the food noise will always be there no matter what, but i can choose to live with it in a bigger body or i can choose to live with it in a smaller body' and holy fuck you're right let me lock the fuck in
ed’s are so devastating to develop because it’s not like you can just Avoid eating; it’s something you will always need to do so it’s just a constant trigger and mind fuck every bite just to survive
You know I think it’s also worth noting that you used to have to actively seek out the eating disorder subsections of the internet and now it’s like. You log onto tiktok and the first thing you see is some skinnyfluencer giving you straight up anorexia tips